Just trying to stay strong. For myself.

New year, new start, new beginning

2012-01-08T20:23:00.002+08:00

Hello all!

Its been so long since I've posted something uh(: Well life did change alot. Really(: I had so much fun within this period of time and I get to see who really will be there for me when I need them. Of cos, New year means new friends too(: Well, its O level year. Gonna studty hard. Will post more next time. GTG.

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!;D

KEEP SMILING! BE HAPPY!!:D

Enduring enduring enduring!!! I am!

2011-04-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

I kept asking myself why am I the one being sacrifised. Why am I enduring so much... Haiz...

There is this girl. All she wants/ needs is only your attention. There's just so much she needs to tell you but it just seemed impossible to tell. You are getting impatient with her and ahe's not liking it. She's trying to complain less and trying to give you more space to breathe. But actually right now, at this very moment, she's feeling damn ill and uncomfortable. All she wants and needs now is just your few words of concern. She just need abit of moral support.

She's just there, trying to stand strong for herself...

Endure!

2011-03-29T13:18:00.003+08:00

My sky darkened a liitle, rained a little... It had nvr felt so painful before. Nvr been so tiring...

All I wanted was to pass you the letter today. Its still with me now though. You just seemed to be happier when others are around you. I know i dun mean so much...

Well, this is the content of the letter. I know you wun come here... Nor will you reply. But just type here so at least my blog can be my listening ear...

To: My Dear

I hugged this foolscap for very long. Duno how to start... Hum, I really need you by my side right now. I need to feel sercure again. I really really really dislike that you use very long just to reply my messages. Sometimes the reply is just one word:( I don't like te fact that you call me just wanting me to forward some bloody message. Ask HER to do it. She's the squad CL now and since you are passing everything to her then pass her the job too...

Told you got alot of things to tell you. Haha. So many... Till I actually forgot what. Haiz...

Well, I guess this year you got to study for your N'Levels. Like that no moreime to go out liao:'( Haiz... Nowdays messages also reduced le...

And and maybe you just belong more to other people ba. Can see your smile is wider when you re around them. Of course, going out wit them will also be more fun... I only hope that the ratio of time you spend with me and to them is 1:10 instead of 1:100...

Yes. I know. I said all these things and it will hurt you. But inside me it atually hurt more...

Cos I felt useless, hopeless... Just a piece of crap shit...

I am still trying my best to endure. I kept telling myseld not to complain not to cry. But sometimes it just hurt so much inside.

I don't know. I guess I just need to feel sercure again. To know that I won't lose you to your friends and that I am of a higher place than them. I want to feel more important and to know that I sercure a place that is fixed inside you.

Haha! I know you won't reply... Just take it as I am talking to the air ba. Hope you have a great life ahead!

With real love
me!

Maybe... I am just not suppose to have you...

I am enduring... you know?

2011-03-20T10:56:00.003+08:00

My predictions were right. You did spent time with your friends till late at night yesterday. Its always me that you dun spent more than 5 hours with?? Am I really that worthless??

Feeling sense of insercurity right now. Cried myself to sleep again. Its like the cycle repeating itself all over again. But this time its harsh! More painful than any other times... Guess I am just not an important part in your life. Or is it time I should take another step out of your life?

I know I don't make a big difference in your life. With or without me you will still be as crazy, still spend equal or even more amount of time with your friends and maybe do even more things that I don't allow. Maybe you will just be happier.

But you do make a big difference in my life. I trusted you... Maybe a little too much?? But still we woman are sensitive creature. Every little single thing has to be nagged at or at least tell us... We want to know what's your plan for the day. Once it gets on our nerves, thats it. There will always be a scar after the fight.

Well I don't know... My sky darkened a little, rained a little and shrunk a little. I have got no idea how long more can I put up with this...

Enduring...

Understand. Okay.

2011-03-19T14:14:00.004+08:00

Friends are more important after all. I know. I understand. I am trying my best to complain less and take in more. Kept telling myself to bear with it.. Well... To be honest, I dont know how long this will last. The bearing. I rejected outings by saying no money cos I just didnt want to get hurt even deeper. Yea... I clearly know I have never been in a place near there. THERE. I am just somebody who you use to pass time when you are bored and to somehow fullfil your needs. I tried my best to absorbed impact myself. Sometimes just let it out on my tears. Like now. Its just so hard to hold everything back. But know that I am trying to. And am doing so...

I will just be one side, letting you know I am here and to stand alone quietly. To continue stnding though I am hurt so badly. Just didnt want you to scream at me again. I dun like it too. So for you to have enjoyable time with your friend, I will just tell you I am busy. Either sleeping or doing homework but I am wiping tears most of the time. Yea. You ask me out cos we haven been together for a long time. Whenever you go out with your friends, you can always stay till very late even though its very far away. But whenever you are with me, you will always need to go back early even though I have already chose a place nearer to your house. Your excuse will always be I need to rest or you are tired. Common. Since you ask me out, then dun use want me to rest as an excuse. It doesnt feel good at all. So what if I said okay or nod my head? Seeing you walk away like that will just trigger my tears to flow again.

Yea. I dun worth that much time...

In messages, I sent
okay= I get it. You dun wana talk to me
nothing= Pester! I wan you to know
and when i get angry, be anxious!

All I want is your real attention. REAL...
Haiz...I know I dun worth so much... But just lie to me. Make me feel less hurt... Less painful...

Flying is faster than walking:)

2011-01-30T14:01:00.003+08:00

Hum... I guess this is like talking to myself. But at least I feel better after posting here like everytime:) At least at the end of the day, there's still something here for me and wun run away unless the com's faulty:)

Well, just so many damn things that happened. Friday was a SUCKISH day man! Forgot to bring E.Math textbook. Early in the morning had to roam about to find 1. Then never finish E.Math homework cos dunno how to do. Reached sch late due to some retarded jam... Chiong finish then took SS article and went to photocopy.

First 2 periods, SS. Stupid teacher nvr use article so throw away. Waste my time and money... Then had Geo test. But tables join together de and she goes around telling answers-.- What the hell... Later followed by E.Math lesson... Time just fly past. Nothing much. CME. As usual, she talk to herself cos she was like down there talking crap. Use the mike as if she is singing song like that. Crazy woman.

Haiz... Recess was usual I guess? Then followed by Physics test. Was quite easy... English! Had some presentation and quick write? Collected homework then give homework again-.- LOL... Finally last bell over then went for HCL lesson. Wasnt what I was looking forward la. So sian. Going to have test again... Crap shit. Then skip the competition after that and went for NP instead. XD. Training was like shit... Aiya dun wish to talk about it la. End of training then went to eat eat with Mr Chan they all. Had lots of fun and enjoyed myself there:)Later, the trouble was going home. XD. No freaking bus till like 10.40? Reached home 11 plus:)

Hum... See? Thats only 1 day of my Sec 3 like. And so fast!!! 1 month past already! Holy shit@! Well, life's too busy to stop. Got to go again! Bye bye!

Pain Pain Pain!!!

2011-01-29T16:01:00.003+08:00

Shits... Muscles aching like shit... Argh! All of a sudden got so much of things to do... Hum... Goona go flat soon!!! Argh! Stupid Tests... What the hell-.- Has been loong since I post something here. Erm, just to conclude the month I guess?? First month just past like that!?! Argh! TOO fast le ba!!! Well, 11 months left to end of Sec 3 like... This year is gonna be fast. Damn fast man. Argh! I think I really haven got time to do anything much!!! I want my own time!!! I wan tto take a week off from everything! I need to catch up on my sleep and relax!!! I need time!!! I need love!!! And I need comfort! Blah. Haiz... Off to do homework liao. Bye bye...

Buckets of tears will be emptied eventually...

2011-01-24T21:31:00.003+08:00

Haiz... Just so many things happened. Sometimes just can't it but just break down like that. Overly stressed I guess... Hum... I NEED a break!!! Suckers!!! Sick le still have to push myself so hard to continue whatever I am doing. Haiz...

Took panadols and went to sleep. Wake up and realise that still got a hell lot of things to do. Almost went crazy... Kept eating to keep myself alive. So gonna put on weight! Argh!!! I think I am facing depression. Need to go for counselling I think XD...

Hum... Off to do bloody stuff now. Bye!

Stressed out---...--- Totally!!!

2011-01-19T21:00:00.003+08:00

Just so damn many things that happened in this short period of time... Haiz... Feel like slamming the door hard and throw everything at it... Haiz... I need a rest! For at least a whole 3 days. Without disturb...

Pass all my tests till now. Gonna have MORE for the time to come. Haiz... Headache headache. Don't want to go for Friday parade! Got WOC:( Last parade liao. But still don't want to go!!! Argh!

Sigh...

2011-01-11T18:58:00.002+08:00

Haiz... The discomfort is back again. Once again, 5 more hours... Argh! Just so many mixed feelings. Haiz!

Cherish before its too late:)

2011-01-02T11:30:00.004+08:00

Haha! Sometimes, we will never know how important someone or something is to us until the point we lose them. Hum yea.

Special messages:
Thanesh!!!
Thanks for the supportive spirit for the past year. Lets strive for the better and excel together yea!

Chicken!!!
Yea... Stupid little times. Still going to stick with you for another 2 more freaking years-.- Haiz... Good luck with your Hen arh!

Zheng Hao!!!
Kor! Next year not same class le... But nvm:) Hehe. I didnt change my phone number ya:) And well done for letting go:) Move on in life and I am sure you will find a better one!:)

You!!!*Most special one*
Hum... Writing the last doesnt mean the least important. Cos yours will be the longest so yea. Scared others jealous XD! Hum... Thanks for all the time you spent on me to help me in any ways. They help alot^^ And all the screct little talks and outings. Yup. Beautiful memories to bring along in life:) Haha. But I am sure we will create more yea:) Cant wait for more of the little outings. Those last minute and decide on the spot ones:) And goona spend lesser time le. Means even lesser outings and little talks:( NPCC KILLER!!! Haha. But sure we can make through it:) Jia yous all the way!!!

-And to those who were not adressed here-
As long as your are my friend, from deep below, I want to say Thank You for all the help and troubles:) Happy after new near XD!

Happy new year:)

2011-01-01T16:32:00.003+08:00

Wow! Its new year already! Which means I am 15!!!! Yeah!!! Haha!

Hum... Just hope that this year will be a fun a fruitful year:)

Too many things on my mind right now. But yea. Off to do QC stuff again-.-

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!

End of 2010.

2010-12-30T18:52:00.003+08:00

Time just past like that. Now 2010 is coming to an end!!! OMG! 1 last day left... Just so many things happened. So many emotions and yea. Life goes on well:)

Hum... Yea. Cried my eyeballs out. So painfull:( But all these are over le. Learnt how to forget and forgive and also to move on. For sure can find domething better. Beter times:) Hehe... Can't wait! Going for countdown soon! Ahhh! Just hope that it doesnt rain...

Yea. to conclude 2010, it really had been a taste of how a roller coaster ride feels like. Hum. The real ride starts next year...:)
- Ans specially to my DEAR!: Hum... Yea. I finally understand how tough it is. Sorry for forcing you so much... Yea. Really. Just hope that 2011 will be a new start. I know. Forgive and forget. I will:) Thanks for everything:) Really!!! Haha!

Farewell 2010!

Sick le:(

2010-12-23T12:43:00.003+08:00

Hum well... So fast. Today 23rd liao. And tomorrow will be Christmas Eve:) Hehe. Cant wait for Christmas:) Presents and surprises!!!

Falling ill liao. Think is body cannot adapt to the weather and sudden change of waking up time. Haha. Running a temperature right now. Just want to head for bed.

Anyways, passed my practical exam! Yahoo!!!:) Hum. The examiner keep praising me^^ Hehe. Anyways, really cannot take it liao. I want die le. Need rest. Bye bye!

Contact me soon...

2010-12-22T21:12:00.003+08:00

3 more months and I am 15! Haha! Yea... Hum... But gonna pass Christmas first... Haha. Tomorrow McDonald's Practical exam:( Abit nervous sia. No encouragment. Ha.

Hum... Still waiting for your little message everyday. They are like my energy to start off everything. Or to end the day well:) Hum... I want you back by my side right now:( Faster! Don't wait le...

Hum... Today went quite well... Woke up early in the morning for quiz competition training. Then came home to study for tomorrow's Mac practical exam. Too tired and went to sleep XD! Haha! Later wake up liao went to CTP to have dinner ad MAC!!! Hehe. Went down to take my stuff for tomorrow's exam too:) Cant wait to get over it:)

Still got so many things to do! Argh! Cant sleep well tonight liao la. And I crave for your hug so much. Just even for a second will do. Been so far away... Haiz. So near yet so far. Any I cant concentrate most of the time cos you are running in my head all the time!!! Argh! Just appear infront of me now, will you? Stop torturing me this way le la... Haiz...

Hum... Off to do something else le... Contact me soon...

Argh! Time! Christmas!

2010-12-21T13:41:00.002+08:00

Yea. Believe or not, I just woke up:) Hehe...

Haha. Had so many weird dreams in one night. Maybe thats what causes me to sleep more:) Hum... Going out soon. Haven settle anything about QC or Mac yet. Going crazy le la. Aiyo. So damn much things to study for. I want to die liao la. But promise to survive till he comes back to me and let me have the chance to tell him what happen and all.:)

Well, really, if i had the power, I will make time past faster. I want Christmas!!! Argh!!! Hum... Got to go now... Know that not even a grain of sand can get into my heart. Cos its all taken up. By you:)

Come back soon!

2010-12-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

Haha... So fast. Tomorrow er I mean today 21st Dec liao... Hum. So fast. Really Really cant wait for Christmas to come. I wan time to pass faster!!! Argh!4 more days to Christmas:) Its 12.30am right now and I am still here blogging. Haha. Well really am missing that period of time and looking forward to the time to come right now... Argh!

Just so many bloody things that happened within 10 stupid days. Days without your closest friend is still not that good. After all, you still NEED them alot alot... In the heart and on the mind.

No matter how far away he is from me, I can always feel the warmth around me. ALWAYS on my mind in my heart. Nevr escape before. Yea. I am missing you a hell lot right now. How I wish you can appear immediatly. Theres so much I didnt have a chance to explain or tell you. Just too much things that happened during the period you leave me. Come Back soon...

Tomorrow...

2010-12-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to past today... Its like 11 plus right now... And today past so quickly... Hope tomorrow come faster.

Haiz... Tomorrow is a promise to no one:)

I think I am Dying soon...

2010-12-15T19:36:00.003+08:00

Gosh... Someone please explain to me why am I so damn fresking upset right now...
Haiz... Think I am dying soon...

Hum... Had a little 2/4 outing today. Quite enjoyed myself there. At least can take my mind off some things... Really broke right now. Actually is totally. XD. Left with $3.40 to survive tmr and friday. Haiz... Gosh! Freak!

Haiz... Obsticals... Just got to pass them. 1 by 1...

9 more freaking days... Hell Days!

Freaking!!!

2010-12-14T15:40:00.002+08:00

Haiz... I did search within myself. It really isnt there. Have really got no answer to anything right now. Just give me a damn break! Gosh! Stop forcing me. You dun understand at all. Get it?!?

Fed up right now...
Haiz...
...

Cant wait fot Christmas...
Not because its a festive of giving...

Anyways... I feel like sleeping again. No motivation to keep me awake.
Haiz... 11 more days...
Time fly faster...
Please...

12th December 2010

2010-12-12T16:50:00.004+08:00

Bleh bleh bleh... Freaking bored right now... Sledom come online so frequently. Haha. Yea.

2 more weeks. Yea. School gonna start again. Alot of things queuing up to do. Just dun have the mood to keep on going right now. Moreover, today is slacking day:)(In my calander:)) Haha!

Well, who wun want a white christmas? I want it too. Havent seen real snow in my life yet. Actually never see fake de before. XD.

Humm... Let me see... Done with FB... Done with email... Really nothing to do!!! Hehe... Go watch TV liao... Maybe that can kill time faster. Today is the 12th of Dec after all. Not that special.

Back!

2010-12-11T20:01:00.001+08:00

Yeah... I know it has been a hell long time since I post something here... Well life still goes on... Hum. Yeah. With or without that something. Just got to move on:)

Quit the job at Mac. Stupid place. Haha... Well, too much a thing to write now. Off to do something else:) Spam all you want!!! Please help to keep this place alive:) Entertain me too:)! :D

your life

2010-09-26T12:28:00.001+08:00

Your life: Proposals, friends, studies, homework, exam... No me. Get it? Proposals proposals proposals... Do you remember the last you even call me? Well, i think i am asking too much le ba...

i dun know...!!!

2010-09-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Just a few lines for you... I wanted so much to tell you not to go hk... I wanted so much to tell you to stay. But since you said you will learn more, i cant possible force you not to go. Just to say i really wan you to be by my side. You said to spend more time with me during the holidays but i clearly know you cant. Now all i can say is really enjoy yourself during your hong kong trip. I will miss you and cant say anything much now... Dun feel bad or anything. Love is just blind. And selfish...

.?!?.

2010-09-01T17:43:00.003+08:00

Haha... Its been so long since I posted something here... Well, computer broke down:( might be thinking how I post... Not ad home:) Lazy to type anything else. Cant rmb what happened... Sick! Physically!!! Bye bye!

... Releflected...:)

2010-08-19T17:34:00.004+08:00

I stared at this page for a long time. I did not know what to poat... Its been long. Very long indeed. Too long till I wana forget and don't think about it. But I just can't. Somebody tell me why?!?

Aiya. Alot of things happened. I realised some people are just not meant to be respected. Must be me that was having bad eyesight or in the wrong mindset to give that person so much of respect. I cant believe he turned out to be such an idiot that I will hate for life...

Got my YOG DBS Prepaid card!!! Free rides!!! Hehe... So happy. Just activated the card! So gonna use it tmr. Well, its time to summarise what happen this week again:)

Mon: Woke up like a blur sotong(As usual)XD... Had History test. Kinda easy... Mdm Ross did not come so had 2 free periods:) Mrs Goh came and took over music cos next day got test...

Tue: Maths test. Screwed it up. TOTALLY... Manage to postpone ting xie to Wed or else both side also die!!!

Wed: Ting Xie. Cher gave us a word that is not included in her list that she told us previously... Ti gam ti gam got it rite! Haha... Quite happy la... Did not do well for previous test le so must use ting xie marks to pull everything up. Had million and 1 homework again. And was very very very upset due to the fact that I lost my freedom!!!

Thur: Didn't even know I woke up. Whole day past just like that Had BORING ppt presentation again. So bored until I dun even feel like going back to class after duty. Something happened during EL and Maths... Well dun wish to talk about it. Haha...

Time pass so quickly that sometimes you just make the wrongdecision without knowing it. Well, 2 sided ppl are all around me now. Idiots like him who showed so much biasness and said that want to treat things fairly. What crap man! Well, I lEARNT TO LET GO OF THINGS THAT ARN'T MINE AND NOT TO GIVE A DAMN TO PEOPLE WHO ARE GETTING OUT OF MY LIFE.!!! :)

I always wanted you right next to me when I need you. But you never were...:(

Purply potato!

2010-08-11T16:22:00.004+08:00

Lalala... Before I knew it, half of week 7 is gone!!! OMG! SOOOO FAST!.

Well, now having stupid little purply potato IT class... I hate it!!! Doing some stupid stuff that I don't even know. Haha... Well, sometimes don't take things too lightly:) I am sure I get the facts right. If not why are you even here? Loser!!! XD.

Well, tests, exams, homework, revision, ect are killing me!!! Argh! I want my freedom! Enjoy my life!!! Haha...

This period of time really brought me to my highest point in life and lowest point in life. I got stabbed but at the same time know who truly cherish me. Haha... Bitch and bastard, so what if you have iPhone? So what if you have dogs. So what if you have sweets? You are still a bitch/ bastard:)

Well, I am so gonna enjoy myself to the max:) Espically tmr. My big dayXD. Not getting married la. But somehow just my big day:) Off to do the stupid little thing le.

And you, purply potato!!! Return my baby pillow!!!!!!!!!! I <3 u 4eva:)

I live my lfe:)

2010-08-05T18:39:00.004+08:00

Well, things just happened too quickly. Everything is repeating itself. I remembered clearly that I told you I have already moved on. So why can't you do so too? Well, I know things have been hard for you but you were the bastard who hurt me that deeply first. And its a wound that can't totally recover. Why? Ask yourself how your stabbed me. Well, I won't let history happen again cos I found somebody whom I can trust and love dearly. Just go get a life and leave me alone!!! Irritating and irritated-~

Well, I am gonna waste some time here for this bitch spammer. Well, ***, I don't care if you gonna see this but: BITCH, FUCK OFF! Your parents never teach you manners isit? You like spamming people's blog because you are lonely and have no friends to keep you busy and doing the right thing isit? So what if Ben sir show care to me? And I don't act sick. What for? You jealous that you can't get the person you like isit? Well, childish little gal, its time to grow up! Look yourself in the mirror before you start commenting on other people. Make sure that you can be better than other people first. Get the fact into your head: Calling other people a loser will only make yourself the biggest loser.

ATC... Missing it. Was damn fun. Well, its gonna be a week soon. OMG! So fast! Let me see what I have done for this week:

Mon- Study study study. Skipped lunch and went home to study for Bio test...:)

Tue- Bio test cancelled. Pissed- off but nvm:) Was a fun day then went home to study for ting xie and history test. Did some revision for Lit test too:)

Wed- Ting xie was a success:) Lit... got back our test first... 10/15= 67%!!! Great job! I improved!:) Then History... Cher nvr come! Next week skipping history because of National day holiday! Argh! Then was Lit test. Was very easy and confident that can score well for this too:) Later that day went to Sp for some solar thingy course. First hour was plain boring until our hands on part. We need to strip the wire and suck up some stuff XD... Here comes the funny part... Zheng Hao is the stripper and I am the sucker XD... We laughed the whole time there. Damn funny arh... Then went home and study for Chinese test:)

Thur(Today)- Chinese test... Die liao... :( But nvm. Will try even harder next time round. Must keep myself going:) Then slack day. Stayed back for Maths Australian thingy. Was okay la:) Killed quite a number of brain cells:) Then need to complete Science project and History scarpbook. Plus come up with the Bio role play script... Aiya still need prepare the uniform and stuff. Tired! Tomorrow will have early dismissal:) Hehe... Will head home to sleep immediatly:) Well, off to my mum's shop now:) Blog next time:)

Yawns...

2010-08-02T14:07:00.003+08:00

Er... Back from ATC!!! Yahoo!!! Was damn fun!!!! I love it! Haha... Well, just fun:) Dun wan to talk much abt it. Vry tired now. Off to do something else.... Bye!

... ~ Fly fl;y and away:)

2010-07-30T11:54:00.003+08:00

Another week just flew past... Time really flies. Today is the 30 july. Last year's 30th july was still my happy day. Well, hope that you are happy this year. This year's 30th july is still my happy day. A million times happier than last year. Well, learn how to let go and move on:) All the best:)

Mon: Was staying back to do History project then go for tuition...

Tue: Had shooting!!! Damn damn damn fun!!! I love it man. Wish to do it again XD... But sick le!!! Bad flu!!!:(

Wed: Service day:) Was the group leader:) Damn fun also. Used up alt f tissue paper:)

Thur: Plain normal day. Was having fever so went home to sleep. Used 4 packets of tissue in a dayXD...

Fri: Today. Plain boring day. Did nothing much. Had DnT in the morning... Then CME, Maths and now Eng!!! Math scored 84%!!! Haha!!! Was so happy! 2nd in class:) Must jis yous more!!! Sandy all the way!!!:)

Going for ATC later. Looking forward to it but it has been raining all day. Hope that the rain will stop later. Really stop. I want to do all activities planned:)

At the same time, I am seriously thinking of Piggy daddy. I want to stay in your hug and think of nothing bt you. I want to live in a world only with me and you. No trouble no worries:) Won't that be a wonderful world? Well, really missing you. Know that you wun bother to come here and see but know that you are in my heart on my mind. Always...

Fly... As far as possible...

2010-07-25T16:45:00.003+08:00

Well, today's post have got alot of things to write about.

Wed: Didn't go to SDC... Was in school for the ready bag challenge. Had a fun time especially at the last part. Mr Chan bought us some food and we were like snatching for them. Aiya very funny jiu correct liao la. Was too tired so I took Nick's sleep bag and took a nap on the chair. Then half way, Jun Ping said he no place to sit so want to share chair with me. Let him sit lor. Then he also took the slaap bag on the table and doze off. I woke up and told Chicken to swap seats with me. In the end Jun ping sitting with Chicken. The moment he knew that Chicken was next to him he woke up liao. Then I sat with Nick and continue my sleep. XD. Haha... When we finish everything le Mr kennan said he want to talk to me so I went to find him. Had some exco talk then went for lunch.

Thur: Stay back for some YOG meeting. 7 Aug 11.40pm then will reach school. Which means will only reach home at 12 plus!!! Then dance that stupid Oh Yeah dance. XD. Record like idiots then went home. Had fever:( Slept and had dinner. Then got ready for NPCC the next day.

Friday: Worst day of my life. Screw up the pledge. Then 2/4 has become a very bad class... Going to be the worst soon le. Wanted to scold the class but in the end changed my mind. CME... Some bitches just don't understand themselves. If your freaking attitude is not going to change, both Truman and Zhong Xuan will leave you! Losers! What do you think you are? Bitches...

Sat: Woke up at 5.30. Bath and went to schjool. Bus left and reach Ulu Pandang CC at 7.30am... Gathered and we were brought to our duty location. Thanesh and I were in chargd of the game station. Funny stuff happened. Then when the game started, some stupid aunties come and create trouble. Well, the duty was very tough. Went home with aching bodies:)

Sun: Today, woke up at 8. Bathed and went for breakfast. Then played badminton with ppl. Enjoyed myself alot but now really aching. Like walking penguin. XD... Anyways, now really in pain:( I want a hug!!!

Once memories fade, they will never be refreshed unless you do them again. Don't ever judge a book by its cover... As things are never what they seemed... Maybe you don't know... But I am missing you... Really thinking of you... Missing you every moment... You don't know but I reaky want to fall into your hug again. I want to lie on your chest and sleep in your hug. They are always so nice... Haiz... Can't be helped le...

-Respect-

2010-07-17T15:22:00.003+08:00

Respect people only if they deserve it. If you want respect, earn it! Even if you are the head perfect, SO WHAT? Even if you are the president SO WHAT? Your character and attitude sucks and I, having you such a leader, it embarrassed me and i rather quit prefectorial board. Sucker! You have NO rights to correct me when you yourself don't know what is right or wrong. Bastard. Argh!!!

Anyways, yeaterday's parade was terrible. Almost everything was screwed up terriblily... But suan le ba... Its the first parade with the sec 3s... Officially without help from the upper sec... Well did some riffle drills and went for Campcraft theory then PT:) Thought can play captain's ball with the Sec 1s but duno what happened... Had 10 min of PT then dismissal parade. Well was quie stupid. Had debrief then went home bathe then tuition. Well, going to do homework and study for tests le.

Going to watch movie tomorrow! So looking forward to it!!! YEAH!!! Bye bye!!!

- F.O.R.E.V.E.R -

2010-07-16T11:46:00.003+08:00

Well, as usual, I am in the computer lab now. Need to do argumentative essay... STUPID!!! Argh... But anyways, today not that good. Forgot to bring my tie... Lucky I know how to tie a tie liao. Thanks Guang xu for helping!!! And wasn't feeling well yesterday:( Argh!!! Not completly recovered yet but because today have got training thats why I am back!:) Hehe... Tomorrow is SAT AND THEN SUN... lOOKING forward to sUN:) GOING TO WATCH dESPICABLE ME:)!!! Yea:) HEHE... Well, do you know that I am thinking of you all the time. Even when I am sick or during lessons. Just before I go to bed, your face and voice never fail to come to my mind. Its just so hard to get it away and fall asleep. I miss your hug, your hands and everything about you. They just can't seemed to get out of my mind for me to concentrate in whatever I want to do... Argh!!! What excatly am I suppose to do
?!?

-Forbidden love-
-F.O.R.E.V.E.R-

~Forbidden love~

2010-07-15T16:28:00.003+08:00

The black and white
I, SANDY TOH, am willing to recognise * as my life-long partner and will respect, support and love him no matter what happens.I will stay by his side forever with no regrets or complain, and willing to exchange my life for his. No matter sick or healthy, I will stay by his side to company and love him. Forever.
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Haha... Then reson why I name this post forbidden love is because... Well, you will know if you check the dictonary:) Good luck:) Haha... This black and white thing is real. Not for show de...

I have been thinking. If you want to alight from the bus... Then boarding the bus should be called delight. Isn't it? Haha... Some random stuff la. Have got quite a number of things to do today... Well, damn tired and busy arh. Plus tomorrow still got tuition and training although I know its gonna be fun:)

Just realised I got cut quite deeply and well, as usual, didn't notice. Was wondering why my socks changed its colour. XD.... Well, I am stupid so cant blame me. Hehe...

As per normal, used half an hour to get the computer working. Well, came online to actuaaly send the class seating arrangement thingy to Mdm Nisah. Well, I am done with it now. Going off to do more important stuff!!!

SANDY!!! JIA YOUS!!! ALL THE WAY!!!

Wahoo!!!

2010-07-10T20:07:00.004+08:00

Well, I have gotten what I want... What I have long been waiting for:) Today's post contains about yesterday and today...

Yesterday was a total damn unlucky day. Suck like shit... 6.30am was at the bus stop when I realized that I forgot about my beret... Went back to take then reached bus stop again at 6.55... Saw the bus coming... Was so happy. Then I remember I forgot to take my freaking belt... Argh!!! Went back to take then left home at 7.15am... Ran to Tiong to take train. Reached there, the door closes... Freak!!! Well, then went to school, do the usual...
After school went for HCL straight cos cher have got something on and we were released by 1.10pm:) Yeah!!! Went to eat then slack slack. Went back to class helped the NCC people to polish their boots... Well, then went to change and go for parade. Did WOC and some stupid drills... Had the worst PT in my life then went to play captain's ball till around 6... Had a super duper long debrief then went for tuition... Thats my boring day yesterday...

Today, well, alarm rang at 9am:) Snooze it until 10am:) Bathe then went out:)... Well then rest was like usual and well enjoying myself:) Haha... Thats it for today!!! Post next time:) Bye bye!!!

* Sorry for all vulgarities in the previous post... *

Fuck-ed up pissed

2010-07-08T16:22:00.003+08:00

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck-ed~!!!!!!!!!!!

Argh!!! So damn pissed off. In a super super super super super bad mood. What ever I say must contain at least 2 vulgarities!!! Why does my CLs have got fucking attitude problem??? Failure! Argh!!! Go find a white clothing that can be totally clean 1 and go bleach something and let it smell nice within 17 hours. Freak!!! Argh!!! I am gonna break down!!! Go sleep liao.:(

Freak

2010-07-07T14:51:00.003+08:00

Well, I am now in the computer lab now... Doing Chem project!!! See project again!!! Haiz... Need to do class sitting arrangement again but unluckly,haiz... Suan le... So tou tong!!! Argh!!! Sob... Sob... I wana sleep le la...

Haiz... Well, today is a suckish day... Wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fu*K!!!!

Argh!!!

2010-07-06T16:31:00.005+08:00

Pissed off, pissed off, pissed off!!! Freak fork fish fun friend!!! FFFFF!!! Whatever... Just feel like scolding vulgarities... Suck!!! 2nd week of school le... So damn fast. Can't believe it. Another 3 das jiu Ssat le... Hehe... Then it will be end of week 2 and end of all nonsense... Crap shit. Just leave me alone!!! Something just missing and I want to find it back.

Well, just isnt in good mood... So yea... I wan a punching bag to punch, to kick, to scream at at and to and to... Do whatever I want la!!! Argh!!! I am bursting. This feeling sucks!!! Nt feeling well at all!!! Argh!!! Puke puke puke!!! Freak!!!!!!!!!! Haiz... I DON'T WANT ALL THIS LA. I want my world peace! I want what I want ansd NObody will stop me. I will make things go the way i want it to go and do whatever I want! I feel so constricted, so tied up. I want my freedom!!!

Maybe... I didn't see piggy for too long? Maybe he is just the missing thing I need now. Yea... Maybe just it... A hug? Haha... Well, thats the first time I smile or you call it laugh today. Feel like vomiting all the way from yesterday till today. Whole day didn't eat anything much and feeling giddy. Can't walk in a straight line. There are people who showed concern and I really appreacitate that. Thanks alot. Need to prepare to return uniform tomorrow. I don't want to be the last 5 and need to bring the rest of the uniforms back to HTA to return. Haha... Just want to return as soon as possible la...

For now, if you don't irritate, I wun bite you. Just leave me alone and you will be fine. I promise. You will remain in 1 piece safe and sound. Aiya. Don't care so much le. Going for tuition soon... Argh!!!! I am not in good mood!!! I wanna burst!!!

Warmth, love and comfort:)

2010-07-04T15:00:00.003+08:00

1st week of sch gone:) Time just fly past like that. Too fast for me to catch. Sometimes I just hate myself for not using time properly to really do things that I want to do. Things are changing and I have no clue if they are changing for the better or worst. I am worring. Really woring. For something I don't know. I feel very insercure. I don't know why. Its like I am going to lose something precious to me any moment. I am scared. Really am.

I am an egg, a carrot and coffee powder. An egg: Hard on the outside and soft on the inside. I am look stong but actuaaly I am not. I may just crack any moment. A carrot: Soft on the outside and hard on the inside. I go soft on you people because I don't want any trouble. If it doesnt harm me I am fine with it. Hard on the inside... Hum to protect myself ba. I know how to say no. I know how to control ba... More of a controlled person. Coffee powder: I can adapt to changes very fast and can work out a better solution in a shorter time compared to other people.

Well, I can say I am the most blessed person ba. I have all three: Warmth, love and comfort:) Well, don't think the wrong side ya... I have got people to love me, have got family support( Not a complete 1 though...) and most importantly comfort from both my friends and teachers. I discovered many more people's real side and really able to trust them more. But... But to those who hurt me before, I am NOT willing to trust them completly again. Why will I be so stupid to let myself get hurt again? Well, protect myself ba. I moved on to recover from my injury... So its time for you to let go and forget what happened. I WILL NOT allow the same person to hurt my twice so just leave me alone.

I am back to strive hard and achieve good grades. At the same time, to gain all respect, trust and confidence again. The first week was a total success! Jia You Sandy! You can do it! Haha... To all, everybody that I know and willing to waste some time here, a few words for you...:
Time can't be reversed so don't keep thinking of the past. Keep them as memories and move on. Cherish today and look forward to tomorrow. Yesterday is a history. tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift. Thats why its called present! Plus smile more:)!!! Always look at the positive side:)

Commendation day over le! The GOH was a tatal idiot... Well inspection like go shopping like that... Stupid ass... Then when to watch the thingy in the hall... Wearing gloves so cannot clap too loud. But I did my best!!! Sorry!!! Humm... The drama also don't know what was going on... Lousy mic system!!! But after all was okay ba... After training then change liao rush to Singapore indoor stadium to watch SYF... We( me, chicken, christine and Brandon) were like idiots. Run in the rain just to flag for a cab... In the rain some more... jump and flag like idiots for around 30 minutes before we got a cab. Then told the uncle we were in rush... He was like damn stressed by us XD... Then the worst thing was traffic jam... Haiz... Did alot of stupis in the cab. Luckily uncle helped us to catch up with the time lost and we managed to reach at 7 sharp. Sorry Nicklaus and Lin han!!! When we reached you guys have already started. But manage to spot you people! XD.

Through this SFY thingy, from the start of the journey till the end when I laughed until stomach ach(thanks to Brandon) I have experienced alot of things. Its good to see strangers and enermies become friends but sad to see good friends becoming emermies or strangers. Well, thats for today.... Too much to write le. Thanks for wasting time here...
:):):):):) SMILE MORE!!!

In school...

2010-07-02T12:01:00.004+08:00

Currently in the school computer lab doing Research again-.-... STARFISH!!! Haha... Well, siting under the cold air con let me think of warm hugs... Who will give me 1 now??? Damn cold.....

Well, slacking la. Later still got HCL lesson... Then will come back later to do Sana thingy... Sain!!! Do finish liao still have to stay back... Haiz... Tomorrow is Commendation Day laio. So nervous!!! Worring if can do well tomorrow... Will give my best de:) Anyways, done with my project le:)

Well, today nothing much la. Started the day with D and T... Already spoilt my day... Then was recess followed by CME... Did nonsense and Mrs Goh never come:)Haha... Slacked.Then now English lesson... Haha...

As usual went to facebook then come here... Not allowed at all de:) But who cares? Everybody also doing so. I know I AM NOT A GOOD GIRL:) Haha XD. School about to end le. Today post until here ba. Need to go le:) Bye bye!!! Missing you:)

Get over it, don't avoid!

2010-06-30T16:34:00.004+08:00

Argh!!!!!! Finally got over the presentation! I told Thanesh, Get over it, don't avoid! Haha... Was damn freaking nervous on stage. Haha XD. But anyways, now over le so yea. Still trying to calm down. Damn stress... Got all my homework done:) Hehe...

I hate to be the last person to know something when I should be the first 1 to know. The feeling is terrible. I don't like people to come and tell me something when I shouldn't hear from that person. Why??? What do you really take me as??? Argh! I don't care liao la.

Well, these two days were okay. Yesterday's training at 4.!!! New record! Creat histroy in NPCC. Never was released so early:) Quite slack also... Did two rounds only. Then was like okay la. Only the hot sun which irritate me alot. I hate the sun!!! Well, it seemed like its gonna rain soon:) Went to eat with Thanesh after training when I was actually not suppose to -.=... Thanks to some ppl who need go deforestation... Sat in Long John's Silver:)and talk about some drugs. Shared quite alot of stuff:) Secrets!!! Then bus-ed home. Slept in the bus. Woke up, sleep again. Woke up, sleep again and the process repeated alot of times:) Finally reached home. Bathed, do home work then sleep:)

Today lehs... Start with Higher Chinese class which already spoilt my day... Then English class which just like fly past and it was recess! Yahoo. As usual, bought rice then sit down and eat quietly:)Then recess assembly, got 'scolded' cos got alot of late comers and need to do the file again. Took back to class and settle it. Miss Lianf never come so in the end just do mindmap, table and workbook:) its like 4 pages onli:) Followed by BORING and SICK Bio lesson... Got done with it then was Literature. This was when my terror starts!!! 1 more period then is time to leave for the hall liao... Got done with it so skip that part...

Went to have lunch. Something very very very stupid happened. Feel that she is an idiot la. Can't think the other way round. Haiz... But anyways, need to go le la. Tired... Haiz... Why are people so idiotic... Think in other ways man...

Bye bye!!! Piggy... Piggy... Piggy... Argh!!!

1st day of sch:)

2010-06-28T21:51:00.004+08:00

Ellos!!! I love school! Haha!!! First day of school was okay. At least I enjoyed myself:) As usual went to collect monitoring book and went to locker to get stuff... Well, the boring day goes on:) Was damn busy rite after sch. Had meetings with my group members and got most of the things done. Then went to do the XIAN presentation thing. So nervous... Going to present on Wed... Argh!!!

Tomorrow got full dress rehersal... As usual-.-... Haiz... Tomorrow gonna be a tiring day. Just like the SANA flag day. It was so fun. Met Chicken and Thanesh early in the morning just to go report. Then went to collect stuff and start work. Most of the people like donate to me and ignored Chicken and Thanesh. Well, actually, Thanesh slack all the way lor. She didnt even go around asking. Lol... Can get all the donations also by luck de... :) No offence:)

Hum... Off to sleep le. Need damn lot of energy for tomorrow's training:( Well, whole day gone because of that. Can't believe it man!!! No lunch! SUCKER!!! WTH!!! Anyways, go sleep le. So tired. Nights!:)

School starts tmr!!!

2010-06-27T21:02:00.003+08:00

Humm... School starts tomorrow! OMG! Pack my stuff le. But still need thermometer... Later still need go find. Sian... Tuesday still got full dress rehersal... Plus tomorrow still need to do the stupid projectsss! Argh! Very tired arh! Haiz... And damn spammer, freak off and go to your mum to drink milk la. Cant grow up isit? Sucker...

Humm... Mr Bean Holiday is a nice show. Haha! Should watch!!! Recommanded! Pkus... Nothing much to post now. Need to sleep eariler. Sorry people, just to say that cos school reopen liao so lesser time to come online. Off to search for my thermometer liao. Bye bye!

Remember, live your life the way you want to live!!!

Trying not to emo?

2010-06-23T12:03:00.005+08:00

时间过得真快。。。一转眼，一个礼拜就这样过去了。。。或许我真的不会好好利用时间去做我想要完成的事情吧。哪如果是这样的话，从现在开始，我要好好抱窝手上的每一分每一秒，不要再让它从我的身边流失。毕竟那是个超痛的感觉。我也会珍惜身边所有的事物和关心我的人。再次的感谢大家，再我最伤心的时候，一句怨言也没有地在我身边陪着我走那么辛苦的路。那么长的一段时间，我也已经看出真正对我好的人，也看到了会默默地为我付出也不会想要得到回报的人。你们或许就是我这一生，在难走的生命路途所需的的知心。我也非常高兴，在我不愉快的时候，你们都会动脑筋让笑容再次的悬挂在我脸上。你们这么的付出，我感觉到了。谢谢：）

Well, currently at home slacking. Waiting for lunch to be delivered:) Hehe... Can be princess for a day:) Well, corrections, I am the king:) No changing of facts:) Don't try to over take me as I might just chew your head off:) Will let you suffer in GREAT pain! Anyways, for those who do not understand the above chinese words, you can copy and paste in the translation website:) They will give you some rubbish that you wun understand:) Hehe... I just tried that. Don't understand yet want to know what it means? Go improve on your Chinese language lor:) That's all I can say.

Today is the 23rd already! Holiday coming to an end! Wow!!! And projects are also nearing its deadline!!! Omg!!! Group members! I want my stuff!!! Hum... After today, maybe I can find the cure to my sleepless nights. Damn terrible and keep having nightmare when I manage to just fall asleep! Now abit of flu... Actually have been quite a few days already but just that today very bad... Now nose and troat damn pain and worst thing is there's still training later! Argh! But looking forward to it la:) ANd tomorrow gwt to wear the number 1 uniform!!! So excited:)

But the sad thing is have to go back to school tomorrow for both the Xi An thing and the YOG thing. Sucker! I don't wanna go la. I want my sleep!!! I dun care la. Well, I am also gonna watch toys story! Wait for so long le!!! But now need go eat lunch le:) Delicious meal! Will try to post tomorrow! See ya soon!

Back in school... AGAIN!!! WTH!!!

2010-06-22T10:30:00.004+08:00

Wow... The 121th post liao. Time really flies. Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANTONA!!! I just happen to remember that. Haha cos today I am 3 months old le mah:) Another 9 months I will be 15 le:) Looking forward to that day again! Hehe... Thanesh... You know what to get for me:) Anyways, you still owe me this year's birthday present lehs. Already officially 3 months liao.

Sorry for not posting yesterday. Went for training at 1.30 when I am suppose to leave house at 2... Thanks to Thanesh again... Went to school damn early cos she have got nothing to do at home... Haiz... Her good friend here is being called up and rushed to school. Got change and left the house. Training started at 3 and ended around 6. My arm almost broke... Keeping doing the whole parade again and again. Haiz... But generally was okay la... Didnt train till too vigrous... Now arm aching. Next training tomorrow and I am currently in SCHOOL!!!

Argh!!! Stupid Xian presentation. Never fail to make me come back to waste time-.-. Should still be sleeping right now lor. Yawns... Damn tired... Later go home and sleep again. But must prepare tomorrow's uniform!!! Argh! Damn it! My sleep!!! Anyways... All I need is to sleep for 1 more time:) Hehehe... I want tomorrow to come faster!!! Well, actually I am done le. Now only waiting for Mrs Chuang to co0me back. Print out liao then I need to go downstair do the YOG booth thingy. I rather stay here to enjoy the air con peacefully and get free lunch XD.

Hum... Done with all my homework le. Now waiting for all my group members to give me their research. Have to do 6 people's job for the Geography project... I hate it man! Waste my time when I can use these time to do more meaningful stuff... Anyways, I go find something else to do le. Damn bored arh! Entertain me!!!

Enjoy the feeling of drawing a smile on the face and not hanging it there:)

2010-06-20T15:59:00.007+08:00

This feeling is killing me! This feeling is killing me! This feeling is killing me!!! Argh!!! Day 4... Sorry for not being able to post yesterday... Went for YOG booth training from 8 to 5.30. Reached home damn tired liao. So yupXD... Went to sleep. As usual. It had already became my routine ba. I want to end all the sufferings! I want to find where I really belongs and draw a smile on my face. Not hang it there!

Went for YOG booth training yesterday. Laugh until very tired. It was okay la... Learnt quite alot of stuff like how to shake hands, how to stand, how to approach people, how to maintain a conversation and how to drag people to another place ect. Was fun as I made new friends with people from other schools and they are damn friendly. Our instructor was Jasmin. It was a fun time with her. Damn nice. Have to do research on Yeman and think of T-shirt design. Sian... 23rd to 26th Aug can skip school! Yeah!!! Hahaha... Will be at NIE for this booth thingy:) Well, not so much to post for that now...

Anyways, HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!!! Wish all fathers or father-to-be on Earth and Mars to stay young, handsome and healthy!!! Make more babiesXD! Hehe... Looking at my piggy key chain now. Wonder where the other half is and what the other half is doing. I stare at the key chain like a fool ba... Maybe thats the way to cease the pain and tourture. I will stop all these nonsense de. I will walk a way out of the mist and tears.

Bad day bad day bad day!!! I don't care arh! I want MY piggy!!! Nobody is gonna take his place or get near his position. Don't think that a confession will make me turn for you. When I reject you, thats it. Means NO way... Get it? If you will leave me alone, I will be the most happy person on earth?(Or alien??) But just leave me alone. Don't give me excuses saying that you only want to take care of me or whatever SHIT! Just buzz off and find something better to do.

Haiz... 3 more days... ENDURE!!! SANDY TOH! ENDURE!!!

Piggy! How are you doing?

2010-06-18T08:27:00.004+08:00

Haiz.... Second day without piggy... Miss ya so much... Really really really hope you are enjoying... Cause i am sufferingng. On my way back to school now. Reaching in abt 15min. Sian... Again, wake up so early just to do the china thingy. Tired arh. Later go home must surely go sleep long long. Like pig like that. XD. Anyways, keep my phone le. Bye people! Will post soon:)

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Well, I am back home now. Just recieved a message from piggy! Once again, I feel your warm around me. I wonder if piggy really know who much he matter to me. He really took my whole heart unknowingly. I really did not know who much I love piggy until he left me. Only if time could be reversed, I will not let all the time we had together gone to so much waste. Now only can wait for piggy to return.

Piggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggypiggy!!!!!!! You are driving me crazy!

Piggy, you are enjoying the sky of stars... Then let me be the brightest 1 that is shinning on you:) Smile:) Always:)The times and days without you are really really terrible... But as long as you are enjoying, everything is worth it. Love ya lots... Just remember to smile:)=)

Lalala... Whatever...

2010-06-17T16:23:00.003+08:00

Yo people! I finish my homework le! Yeahs!!! Now currently at Thanesh's house slacking. Her mum and sis went overseas. Dad working:) So her good friend here is at her house to keep her company:) Went to collect the number 1 uniform:) Girls only get to collect the top shirt... Not nice de... I want the whole suit la... Blasting music on Thanesh's computer now. Still need to finish all the projects and haiz... Just too much stuff to do...

Well, people, hows life? I want it to go well... I am not giving up and let fate lead me but leading fate and leave a trail behind. I don't want any distubance. Just leave me alone. Don't provoke me and I wun bite you. Get it? Don say I didnt give warning. Missing you... Hope you are enjoying yourself. Know that you wun come here and see. You most likly have forgotten this site even exist... Haiz... Really need you know. Not want but NEED!!! Wondering what are you doing... Humm... Enjoying the weather and environment there? I stare into the walls and my books... But your face never fail to appear... Your voice plays itself in my head again and again. I am soooooo damn afraid that it might fade away before you come back... PIGGY!!!! I NEED YOU!!!

Haiz... Off to think of piggy le... Hope you are enjoying yourself:) Take care:) Loves^^

Backy!

2010-06-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

Yo people! I am back le... Sorry counldn't post while I am overseas... Hard to get connection there. Well, Xi an trip is okay la... Lazy post la. But now don't want to see watermelon or any soup plus vegetables... Got enough of them liao... Off to sleep le. Damn tired plus tomorrow still going out. XD. Haha... Tired le. Am off to sleep. Bye people! Thanks for all the encouragments:) I love you:)

1, 2, 3, 4

2010-06-01T14:27:00.004+08:00

Haiz... Sandy! BUCK UP! Exams results sucks... Promo test sucks... Argh!!! Things just arn't going right... Just too much is happening in such a short time.

Mum and dad had been fighting for the past month. Think this family gonna break up le. If thats the best way for both parties, Mum, I support you! Was thinking hard yesterday. I cried for the whole night under my blanket and nobody knows. I really did think hard. Mum, the decision is now yours. I will take good care of Mei mei de. No worries:) I told you I am under alot of pressure... I have figured a way out le. I will let go of all positions and be the me. The original me:) The one that draws a smile on her face and not hang it. I want to see the rainbow after the rain and not the dark clouds during the rain. Maybe I can gain confidence again that way?

Promotion test. Finally over le... Told us thatt there was a promotion test on Sunday, giving us less than a week to prepare. Not fair! Surely never do well this time round de. Damn stress waiting for the results. If this time fails I really don't wana care so much le. I gave up alot of stuff for NPCC... Really hope can do well in this. Studies drop like don't know what. Partly because of campcraft then dragged down. The other half was because of family problems. Don't have the mood to study. With these family problems, they have gave me alot alot alot of stress. Stress that can't be explained... Now can only solemly sit down there and do nothing but pray.

Not last yet but regarding Nicklaus... You people want to go like him then go like. Its non of my business and I don't give it a damn. Don't be so immature to come spam my blog because of him. Please use your brain and think la. If he is yours he will be. If he isn't, no matter how hard you spam my blog or call my a bitch or slut, he never will be. Benjamin Tan too... Like all you people want. I have got better things to do and my piggy to concentrate on:)PIGGY PIGGY PIGGY!!! I AM GONNA MISS YA MAN... Haiz... Thats our life ba...

Going to China in 15 hours time...:)Not looking forward to it at ALL! Have not done packing my luggage. Just dump it there... Only if I can don't go in 15 Hours time. I really can't bring my heart along... Damn worried. Had a nightmare yeaterday night too. Dreamt that piggy left me man:( Can't feel sercure now... I don't want piggy to leave me. And piggy CANNOT leave me!

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The Malaysia trip pictures will post when I find my cable:) Off to do other stuff now. Will try to post soon. Don't miss me too much guys:) Bye! <3 Piggy:)

time flies... hours past... Jia you! Endure!

2010-05-25T17:14:00.003+08:00

It has been long since I really posted something that can be read... Anyways, just got back from Malaysia yesterday... So damn tired now... Have taken some pictures but lazy post. Next time ba:) Friday parade sucks man. It was the worst I have ever been to!!! Got injured yet the idiot can't put himself into my shoes and think of my feelings. How can he still be my NCO? Nonsense... Never mind... Idiots don't have brain to think... Brainless fools. Haiz...
After such a long and tiring search to my right and left, I really did not notice you infront of me. Thanks for giving me all the support I really want and crave for. Sometimes, there's no need for a million friends who don't bother you at all. All you need is just 1 who really can understand you well and be there for you when you need help or a listening ear. Of course the person must be cheerful and never give up in whatever he or she does. I think I really found quite a few who really don't mind staying by my side and help me along in the path of life. Without them, my life might just be plain boring. Thanks for loving me and showing so much concern.
However, all these eventually will end up me liking 1 of them. I can possibly accept all of you guys when I don't even have those feelings for you people. There's 1 in my heart now. No needs to ask who. You know the best:)

My phone:)

2010-05-16T09:47:00.004+08:00

Posting with my phone now. Didnt know my phone so damn interesting. Haha. Anyways, sry for not posting for such a long time. Exams are finally over! Yahoo! I will try to come here more often but now off to bathe:) going out later:) bye! Thanks for visiting:)

This is unbelievable!

2010-04-18T20:42:00.003+08:00

时间真的过得好快好快。。。发生在身边的事情来来去去，很多时候都没办法好好去理解，去体会。我啊可说是世界上最大最大的笨蛋。对，我可能就是不会好好珍惜身边的一切，失去了才后悔。或许这些痛和折磨让我看到人的真面目和可怕的心肠。我在战场上打滚了那么就，现在也累了。或许是时候放下这一切了吧。。。

Haha! People! How's life going? Mine have been going well. At least happy enough to let me continue living:) Aiya. Damn happy this two days espically when a teacher called a bitch to remove her perfect badge! Haha. I LOVE that scene man. "Hey bitch, I think you should remove your prefect badge!" OMG!!! I think I am starting to love this teacher more! Did stupid testsss... Study for stupid tests... Aiya... Anyways, off to edit campcraft article le. Forgot what I want to post also. Haha... 451 hours and 30 minutes more! Jia you man! Haha... Bye bye! Love ya people... (Abit lesser then peach tea la)

Sick... Fever:( Terrible!

2010-04-16T17:18:00.004+08:00

Every year same routine... Fever! Argh!!! I want to go NPAP tomorrow but cannot... Fever still here:( So bored at home. My life have been wasted by sleeping and eating since yesterday. Didn't have energy to get out of bed until a moment ago. Feeling so terrible! Argh!!! If I can choose, I will rather die to end the pain. Things are just not going right and when you want them, they run away from you and leave you the pain to suffer yourself but when you finally recover from the pain and let go, they come but wanting you. I really don't know what to do le... Aiya. I go back to sleep le. Nights!

Hehe... How has it been going?

2010-04-12T15:57:00.002+08:00

IDK? What on Earth is happening? When I didn't want to , you made me do so. When I finally see light and stand up from the great great fall, you come running back to me. I don't know la. Don't want to know... Argh!!! Messed...

Argh!!! Why is this happening? Is this Earth?

2010-04-06T16:02:00.004+08:00

Leg swollen! Forgot to take medicine! Die liao... Aiya... anyways, trying to rush ecerything by now. Homeecons project work, recipe and revise for tomorrow's test... Why does the life of a student so miserable? Everyday not test then projects? Do they have better things beside all these stuff? I do until sian liao. Haiz... Off to do other stuff... Bye!

Aching... Pain...

2010-04-05T08:29:00.004+08:00

Why does a boy wants to throw a watch across the hall? Because he wants time to fly... Haha... Lame, I know... However, I want time to stop. For now... I am enjoying the moments I am having... Although there are tough times, but thinking ] that as a team or squad or whole group of us are suffering together and can enjoy the fruitful ending, has already gave me the confidence of succeeding in whatever I do...

Back from the kayaking course... The instructors serious have got bad mood swings and attitude proplems... Scold me for things that I didnt even do. Suck to the core la... Damn them... Anyways, passed the course liao so no longer need to see those dog faces that only knows how to anyhow bark at people... In the computor lab now... Suppose to do Science project de. But don't know where to find that stupid chat so left it alone. Decided to skip PE later. Whole body still aching and leg swollen le. Think that yesterday still in deep water for too long then got bitten by some stupid stuff... But no worries. I going to see doctor later.:) Hope that doctor give me MC then tomorrow don't need to come school. This [place is getting real BORING. Sianz....

Doing fourth question le... Satistics of air pollution in Singapore... What the hell man... Stupid question. Want answer don't know how to go search yourself arh. Not releated to me also... why still ask me do? Wastage of time... My right hand can hardly move liao... Whatever. Can see that today is a boring day. Only if someone can give me a full body massage to release my tension.... Need to go le... Will post soon! Smile no matter what happens! =D

Upupup... Downdowndown...

2010-03-28T21:57:00.003+08:00

Yo people! How's life? Things have been going up and down for me... Like a roller coaster. Quite a scary 1. 1 that I will not risk to take again... Its just too scary. Like today. It was going well until something stupid came in the way. Almost made the wrong mistake in my life. Lucky I have got piggy^^ Thanks alot:) Anyways, I have got nothing intersrting to post la. Life is just like that. Hope yours will be a fruitful 1:) Remember to smile always:D

Love me the way I am. Don't try changing me^^

2010-03-25T10:55:00.003+08:00

Time flies... Its gonna be 3 months since school reopens. Many things have happened. Both happy and sad. People have been going around spreding whatever they like to say. But have you people think of what you are saying? Before you give comments on other people, have you think about how perfect are you compared to that person. You say I have attitude problem. So what's wrong with my attitude? I tell you people to tuck in the shirt- its according to school rule. Since you are in the school, wearing the school uniform, just wear in properly. If not must well don't wear anything. You are in the school you respect the school. I am only doing my job and my job is NOT to make you happy but to enforce the rules. I can't possibily satisfy everybody. I am a human too. You guys have just got to understand what you want. I can't control your life. Live it the way you want.

Women/ girls are like sand- The harder and tighter you grab and hold on to, the faster they will slip away from your hands. Men/ guys are like kites- You have to know when to pull them nearer and when to let go. Love is just a way of expressing the feeling inside. Well, there's nothing worng to like or love a person. Its the natural feeling:) HahaXD. Anyways, to simplify, being love sick is to miss someone you love dearly when you just saw them a moment ago... Haiz... He vomited yesterday... Is praying hard that he will recover soon... Enjoy whatever you are doing! Hear from you on Saturday:)

Campcraft. We got 2nd!!! Haha. Not bad for a small team like us but that made us the biggest loser... Almost the perfect birthday present. Boy's team got 4th- Well done! Work harder in two years time and we WILL acheive the DOUBLE CHAMPIONS! Sort of miss campcraft nowdays. Its weird to go home early when we are suppose to stay back for training. Its werid to not put PT Kit in the bag on the noght before the days that we have got training. it just doesn't feel right. Its like a part of me thats missing. All these are not that important. At the end of the day, its not the product we are looking forward to but the process that we miss. I know that we will never have the chance to stay together as a team again and train together till late night and go for dinner together. Its sort of sad and I really really really miss that time we all spent together. We grumble when we have to do them but when it comes to an end, we sort of miss it.

This is just like life. We don't cherish the things we have when they are by our side. We only cry or regret when we lose them. Its a fact that all of us know but we are not taking any actions upon it. Why? This is called the human nature:)

Yahoo:) Smile:D

2010-03-13T17:56:00.003+08:00

Double finalist, we have got it. Haha. :) Peach tea... Might betray you... Well as for the class, I will still be who I am. You hate me, I can't help you. I respect you, so I want the respect from you in return. If you think I slacken down, think again. You abuse the space I give you and don't show me the respect I deserve, your life will be difficult. I promise. Think please. You have still got 2 years in school. Why start making enermies when you just started secondary 2 life? You hate me so much, come right in my face and tell me. Why need to spam my blog and still don't dare to write your name? Why need to ask your head of the gang to come find me? Because you are a coward? No guts? Whatever.

Anyways, finals is 7 days away:) Jia you campocraft team. We can make it! When we have the will, we will have the way. All the best!

smile:):):)

2010-03-06T21:47:00.003+08:00

Didn't want to come here to post anymore. didn't see any point. However, realised that people do come here. Haha. Whatever. Not going to come here that often anymore. Very tired after training. For whatever that Ihave given up for, I am going to claim it back form campcraft competition! We are going to get champion! Jia you all the way!

9th... 10th... And the holidays!!!

2010-03-03T16:47:00.003+08:00

Humm... While being the 9th week in school have made me see alot of things. My real friends and some idiotic bitches. Some that think they rule the world and has the power to control everything. You have somebody at your back so what? That means you are a weaking. Can't stand on your own because you don't have a backbone? So sad... While, I hate cowards that dare not be straight forward. Want to spam people's blog then leave your name la. Yes, I am stupid so what? It doesn't even concern you right. Have got nothing to say then scram. Your parents never teach you manners is it. Like that then I won't blame you. Got parents equals to no parents. Poor thing... Got dump by a guy because you suck. Get it? I admit that I am no good. At least I have the guts to admit it. I have the face to face the real me. Unlike some bullshit that is burried underground and only know how to go around calling poeple names. Why not look at yourself first. Do you even have a mirror at home? I wonder... Get a life and buzz off!!!

Anyways, quite excited for the finals result to come out. Hope that its double finalist. Haha. Humm... Got back a number of test too... Did quite a number of tests and have more coming up. Hehe. Have been doing good. Keep it up, Sandy! Yup. Think positive and thigs will go my way. I will not allow these stupid bitches that have no parents to teach them manners to add on to my burden. I have found my own life and is getting on very well. I have got better things to do. By the way, before I leave, a note to E2/4 people: Whatever that comes our way, we face it as a class. We suffer together and share the success together. The meaning of class is: to do thins as 1. I know that we have been losing out on that as there have been alot of things happening. Well, if you are not happy with the other person, go and tell him or her. They might not know that by doing some stuff will make you feel uncomfortable. Just go and have a talk and things will change. Trust me guys. After all wars and fights, we are still a class.

JIA YOU PEOPLE! BE UNITED:)

Alive

2010-03-01T16:58:00.003+08:00

Yo people! Long time never come online le. Thanks to all who tagged and help spam espicially Thanesh... Humm... Well nothing major really happen this few days except for the Campcraft competition. Both the girl's and boy's team did very well. Congrates man! Haha... Although the girl's team is not likely to enter the finals but at least we did try and have the experience to bring along with us through our life. Anyways... Got 1 week of break form all these nonsense. Seriously need a break away... Espically from people who have got no respect for themself. I don't wana spoil my blog for some BITCHES that do not look at themselves in the mirror. Oppsss do they even have a mirror in the first place? No idea. Whatever you want to say, I don't care. You can call me bitch, you can call me slut. It doesn't really matter. You only dirty your own mouth and don't respect yourself. Whatever... Goi8ng for tuition now. Also need pack bag for tomorrow. Going to run at Chinese garden^^. Cya people soon:)

My roller coaster life

2010-02-21T19:08:00.003+08:00

Well...Haven't been coming online for quite a while... Did not have time to come here. Very busy with upcoming competition, testsss and never ending homework. Going to go crazy le. Haiz... Many things have been going on too. Both happy and sad. Know that some people do cherish me. Some are just taking me as their tool and nothing better else. Humm... Ups and downs... Thats life. HAHA. Yesterday was the guys team campcraft competiton. It was great!!! Guys team. Great job man:) Next up its ours. I am very stress... Haiz... Whatever... I don't care le la. I will only concentrate on MY Peach Tea^^

Maths 101? Lol...

2010-02-12T15:52:00.002+08:00

This is the 101th post. It reminds me of the Mathematics worksheet. Haha. Chinese New Year is coming! Yeah. So damn excited!!! At the same time Valentine's Day is also coming:)Rejected 7 guys requests today just to go out with Thanesh. Haha. Within a week, I recieved 3 confessions... Can you people find somebody better and leave me alone? I said before that I only love Peach Tea right? Haiz... Peach Tea is my boyfriend and my husband. Which means, I will not like anybody else. GET IT? Go fond something better to do.

Okay, well, alot alot alot alot of things happened within a few days. Cried last training. I really give up hope on the girls team already. Not thtat they can't do it but they don't want to give their 100% and do it. Competition is just round the corner and yet everybody does not want to come for training. By giving stupid excuses only make yourself sound stupid! Haiz... Hopeless. Well, went to Yuhua primary yesterday. Skipped the whole day of school!:) However reached home damn tired and have lots and lots and lots of homework. Completed quite alot already. Humm... Well, I have to go offline soon! People, don't miss me too much. Going out on a date with Thanesh^^ Don't be jealous:) Haha. Okay whatever. Happy Chinese New Year and Valentine's DAY! Loves:):):)

Happy 100th Post!!! Yahoo!:)

2010-02-09T17:09:00.003+08:00

This is the 100th post! Yepee... Did not expect to keep it going till this far. JYJY! Haha. As I said, I went to Sentosa on Sunday with Nicklaus, Jackson and Andre. So sad. I only girl and only Sec2... Xin Yi wanted to come but don't know why last minute not coming. Hum... Went to play Frisbee the whole day at the beach. Got myself injured all over. Bleed like hell.:( Pain... Humm... But overall was fun! I promised that this will be a nice and happy post. However, too many unhappy things happened and I have no chice but to say it. I, Sandy Toh, is here to say that I like NOBODY. Get it? Stop spreading stupid rumors and getting me into trouble. So, to say I DON'T LIKE Benjamin, Shannan, Nicklaus, Wei liang and the list goes on. I only treat them as my seniors. NO more then that. If I find out any idiot that go around pairing me up that person will get it.

I have the rights to choose whoever I want to like and I want to hate. You have got no means or right to tell me who to like or who to hate. You have no power to control my feelings. I like him so what? You jealous isit. To be honesnt, very very very frank with you guys- I only love peach tea and thats it. Nobody stays in my heart and it is locked. So don't come irritate me with your nonsense. Which means I am singles on Valentin's Day!

Okay... Tomorrow don't need to do pledge. Haha. Its postpond to April. So happy. Haha. Need go out le. Bye bye. Happy Birthday to Patricia and Jacob!

The 99th post...

2010-02-06T20:29:00.003+08:00

The 99th post. Haha. Well, today got quite a number of things to post.
1st- Wednesday need to say pledge! OMG!!! ARGH... Can don't want? That's my duty for the week. Although only a few seconds and 1 day, but its enough to kill me man. I seriously don't want...
2nd- I flunk my History test! Although teacher got go through before the test but once I got the paper, I forget everything! Haha. I don't care about Histroy de. ITS TOTALLY HOPELESS...
3rd- Today's training very terrible. Really hard core training. Under the bright sexy hot sun. Now sunburn:( Very red and my sister keep calling me red gorilla. Do I even look like 1? Haiz... Basically today's training was a great improvement. Humm... I seriously love the last round of training. Some incidents happened but the last round was indeed still the best:) It was indeed the best. Hehe...
4th- What did I want to say? Oh ya... Tomorrow going Sentosa! Yeah:) Haha. Haven't been there for quite a long time le... Go there play play walk walk and slack la. Bascially its just a time to get away from home and homework....:D
5th- I have finally made my new year's resolution. I know its abit late but at least its beofre Chinese New Year... Okay, its as follow:
1)Get at least 5 A1 for my CA1. Must work extremely hard= Lesser slacking time
2)Forget all about those kerks and be able to love again.
3)Love Peach Tea more^^
4)Quit being emo-girl...
5)Save phone battery.
6)Get more sleeping hours EVERYDAY

Well basically thats all... Will post next time which will be the 100th post...:) Promise will be a nice one:D

I am tried... If only time can be reversed...

2010-02-04T18:16:00.004+08:00

Yeayea... I will not be emo for the sake of him again. I will not drop another tear either nor will I get myself hurt again. GUYS-> Retarded people. Only knows how to play with other people's feelings. I have made myself give him up:)If I get a chance to have a wish that will really come true, I will wish to have my memories erased and never allow it to return. I have face more then enough fears and pain. If I can I will rather die to go through any more processes. They are terrible...

Today got back Mathematics paper... Didn't do well... Eric scored full marks. Congrates man. Well tomorrow History test 101% fail de... Not listening in class. Just recieved the message that tomorrow after school need to go for prefect meeting. What the hell... Humm tomorrow can skip Higher Chinese. Haha. You think is lucky? No way man. Is because that we have got the stupid campcraft test tomorrow. See? I am very busy de... By the way, anybody wants to go out on Sat? After campcraft training or something? By then my sister will be home from Malaysia... Don't wish to see her. I just need a break... Anybody going for it?

Emoing- My job

2010-02-02T17:57:00.004+08:00

Today. EMO-ED. Was trying to recover both mentally and physcially. Has been fighting a very strong feeling inside me. I don't think I will win but I have at least covered up 75% of the stupid feeling. Its like a war inside me. I don't know. Today is just a terrible day. Got down from bus, turn left instead of taking the normal route. Walked to the park and spot a peaceful spot. Was enjoying the silence and I stared at the plants. Tears just flow to my eyes... The plants are my role modle. The survived under terrible situitions like rain or very very hot sun. We pluck out their leaves yet they doun't shout. We step on them yet they don't hit back. We kill them yet they have got no comments. They too have got feelings. Why can they bear with all these touture but I can't. I cannot find they answer and cried. I cried really from the inside. After that. I got myself sorted out. I have decided to close the previous chapter by giving him up and concentrate on my studies. Why get hurt when I can prevent it. Of course, it will also hurt me, forcingmyself to give up. But his attitude towards me is so obvious so do I have a choice? No. Must well get hurt a little then to hurt for the rest of my life. I cannot stand these nonsense anymore. I am so going to stop loving and give way. I will be a kid that you hate because I do the things the way I want and get the things the way I want it. You love me the way I am and don't ever think of changing me. I am ME!

Today actually can take back Mathematics test de. But last minute Mrs Cheryl Goh say have not mark finish. Then forget about it lor. Pe never go cos nose block. Cannot breathe properly. Chinese Ting xie- Forget about that. No hope de. Recess- er wasn't that pleasant. Still okay... English, slack like siao. Hate that BASTARD teacher alot. Make me the chairman then don't put me in her eyes. What is this la?!? WTF! Sometimes I see her, I sooo wana give her a slap in the face, split on her shoes and scream vulgarities in her face. This type of person also can be teacher. What bad luck man. FU*K. Then time for Geography. Miss Tan got only 1 period then the second 1 she need to leave for don't know what reason. Got back test paper. Scored 10.5/15... Saw the paper and almost burst out crying. Never mind. Tomorrow got Science Test. Go study le. Closing this chapter of life, I wana say, I AM WHO I AM. YOU DON'T CHANGE ME AND I WILL NOT CHANGE FOR THE SAKE OF YOU. GET IT?

1st day of the month...

2010-02-01T16:19:00.004+08:00

Yo! Today is the new month!:) 1st day of the new month woke up late. Haha. Overslept 1hour. Don't know is alarm clock never ring or I too tired. No idea? However, I have to thank Shannan for his morning message. If it wasnt for that, I will be 101% late for school. This morning, grab everything and rush to the toilet and change. Run while tiying my hair. Was like a mad person. Reach school still got to go collect the monitoring book as Chan Myae will be late and Bryan not in school. Then 1st period is Home Econs so need to go locker to get the Home Econs practical stuff then was like still got duty after that... Haiz... Well bascially I haven recover la. Training also never go then feel so tired.

Plus, things have not been going my way... Why?!? I don't know? People give me sudden shocks at times when I am most unprepared and hurt me at times when I need them the most. The only thing I want to do now is hide in my bed. I don't want to go to school. I don't wan't to eat. I don't want to wake up. I don't want to face anybody. I just want to lie there and don't move. I seriously need my space to breathe. Having Testsssss everyday of the week is no joke and the weekends taken up by homework and CCA stuff. NO LIFE! Even sick also have to press myself on. Who on Earth will do that? I don't know. I am also sitting down, thinking if I should forget about Mr Peach/ Mr Sandy-likes-him-but-he-will-never-like-Sandy... I know that studies come first but liking somebody isn't my fault. However, the sudden cold shoulder he gave me really really feels like a knife being stabbed onto my back and only a few more inches into the heart. I don't know what to do either. I asked him for an answer to a question he don't want to tell me. Then keep hinting me like don't know what. I seriously GONA give up. I know this is soooo going to hurt me but I have no choice. Do I? Love can't be forced. Loving somebody means letting the person feel happy. He doesn't really feels happy whenever I am around. When was the last time I even talk to him or he even approach to talk to me? He takes me as invisible when he sees me. At least nod a head... But he DIDN'T. I cried but not for his cold shoulders towards me. But because I have given up hope on him.

Sick. What the hell!!!

2010-01-30T18:48:00.003+08:00

What the freak... Fell sick... Feeling so damn terrible... Fever and flu. Crap... Went for the CSSP thing today... Down there waste some time and then the fever came... Haiz... What crap is this? Now just wake up and feel much better. If tomorrow still not feeling well then Monday not going to school le. I am off to study le. Bye people!

What a freaking day.

2010-01-28T18:23:00.003+08:00

1st thing first: I AM BROKE!!! Have been spending too much... Haiz... Next: I flunk my Mathematics test:) Good luck to me man... Hope that my head will not get chewed off on Monday by Mrs Cheryl Goh^^. Humm... Then freaking idiots please stop spreading rumours around that are not true. You guys got nothing better to do is it. Stupid fat ass... Buzz off la. Take up space only. Wanted to be nice to you and in the end you way too free go do this type of stupid things... Asshole la.

Never mind. Good news. Tomorrow don't need full uniform! Yahoo:) Haha. Today study group go quite well and hope that the next 1 will be better:) Then I am off to study NPCC stuff. NPCC also got test. Haiz... My life really surrounded by tests. What the hell. I think now only peach tea can cheer me up. Peach tea, where are you?

I am in school^^

2010-01-26T16:38:00.004+08:00

This post is posted in school. I ma currently in the computer lab doing nothing but chatting and blogging. Enjoying the air-conditional too! I believe nobody is doing the same thing as I am now.:) Well I don't think anybody body will come here but I realised that there is 1 or 2 people coming here. I know that there isn't anything intresting so I don't expect people to come. However, if you did come to my blog, please tag befor leaving. I just want to keep track of who is coming here although I can easily track who comes here but I only want people to tag here. Haha. Thanks for trouble... To all new commers, WELCOME!!! You might regret coming here but my blog is still my best friend. You want to know my secrets, ask my blog. He knows almost everything. Can be my boyfriend liao. Lol. Haha. Humm... Well, nothing much have been happening. Could not come online on weekends because I have alot of homework to do and tests to revise. Can't help it...>< Okay off to do something else. Don't miss me too much!!!:)

Blah blah blah

2010-01-24T14:39:00.004+08:00

Well, this is abit dead... Hum... Nothing to post and nobody comes here anyway. Well life have been torturing and I hate what I am in now. It doesnt feel good nor right. I just don't deserve what I am having. Why? I don't know. Feelings come and go at the wrong time... Like and hate the worng person. Things are getting messy and confusing plus nobody is caring to sort them out! Well the fever is back and I am off to take medcine. Hope will recover soon... Haiz... Oh ya... Remember to tag me if you want to be added to my blog as reader. Gonna change this link soon and lock this up. Bye for now!!!

I just love PEACH TEA!!!

2010-01-20T20:11:00.003+08:00

Haha... Today wasn't a bad day nor a nice day... Had two tests. 4 periods of tests straight before recess. So freaking idiotic. Wanted to sleep le but realised that still got Science homework not done. Took it out and scanned through. Don't know how to do. Stupid. Teacher did not even teach and just ask somebody to pass the message to the whole class! Was like cursing the teacher! Don't know how to do arh. Anybody help? Haiz... I don't think anybody will want to help^^ Never mind. Haha. Okay... Training was... Humm... I shouldn't say training. Did not even put up a shelter today. Only 6 people turned up. 3 for flag staff, 1 for gaget and left two for shelter. Could not do any thing as we don't have enough people. In the end, training starts at 4.30pm and ended at 5.30 pm... Slack through out the whole thing. Keep tying the round lashings only. So sad... Now got blisters on my right plam and it hurts!!! Haiz... So tired... Will continue to go around searching for people to help me with my home work. Bye!

Why?Why!Why?!?

2010-01-19T15:27:00.003+08:00

Haiz... I just realised that I have a friend that likes the same person as me. OMG!!! All the while I was thinking that she like another guy so it wasn't my problem. Now I know why she is so angry with me. She thought that I tried to get near to the person she likes so as to make her jealous... WTH!!! Now I feel so confuseed so sad... I feel like crying out loud but I can't. I feel like tellin him that I like him but I can't because my friend has voice out that she likes the guy first. I just feel so wrong to like that guy... I feel like giving up for the sake of friendship. One that will never break... How? Should I give up without even trying to battle or fight for him till the end? I don't know. I seriously don't know. Whatever's gona happen, is NOT my problem. Maybe its just wrong to love or to like somebody. Thiongs shouldn't be going this way... Haiz...

Love? To go ahead or stop?

2010-01-16T17:50:00.004+08:00

Okay... I see alot of tags regarding the previous post. Didn't know will create so much commotion. Hum... I will not tell who that person is. You guys go find out yourself. Liking somebody isn't wrong. It will only be wrong when you use the wrong method to love that person. Bryan, I know I shouldn't write this here but sorry... Really really sorry. I am being bad to you to let you heal yourself faster. I want to be nice to you so you will not get yourself hurt deeper. I know losing something feels terrible but I really am not your cup of tea. Well, amybe that person isn't my real cup of tea but knowing that I like that person is more than enough. Seeing him also satifies me.或许过去的伤害和错的决定是让我长大的磨练。我从中学到爱一个人不是那么的容易。要肯牺牲才会有收获。牺牲是一种痛苦但受到的伤害也不会好过。也许不去爱才是对的决定。感觉是不能控制的所以我们常常会在感情上犯错。那应不应该去爱他呢就看是否能承受所有的打击及伤害和挫折。决定权都在你手上。后过要负责不要逃避。

Omg...

2010-01-14T17:44:00.003+08:00

Opps... I suddenly realised somthing... I really really like somebody... Somebody that I think of even when I sleep, eat and doing homework. How?!? Should I forget about it and concentrate on my studies? I don't know. All I know is I am crazy about this person! Argh!!! Here comes trouble...

Friends... Random

2010-01-13T21:01:00.003+08:00

Friends- A buddy, an arm for survival. They are the best people you can find when you are in bad mood. They will never fail to cheer you up. I found 1 very very very nice friend that can listen to you. Nice... Well, I don't feel like posting and so I am off.:)

Depressed and tired...

2010-01-09T18:09:00.004+08:00

If only time can be reversed, I will not make the wrong decision. If I never made the wrong decision, I will not be in this state now. I know people around me care about me. I know people around me love me. However, the problem is I can't care and love myslef. Being only visible to the small picture in the begining gave me alot of trouble. Corrections. Is still giving me trouble. Should I give up or continue to persever? I really don't know. I really really really want a shoulder to cry on, a back to lie on. I am tired of thinking. Really. I want to give my brain a rest. Will you just take me tonigh and run away? I want to start afresh. Escape to somewhere where nobody knows me or my past. I want to delete unpleasant memories. If someone is willing to lend me a shoulder to cry on, that will be the best. Haiz... Hope someone will bring me tonight and disappear from this cruel world...

Wadever!

2010-01-08T20:15:00.003+08:00

Hi...This week is okay except for the bad Friday... The worst day in my life. I don't want to mention it. Anyways, the class blog has been changed to http://ntsse242010.blogspot.com

New year, new begaining

2010-01-06T16:22:00.002+08:00

Hi people! School reopen le and how's everybody's life? I hope they are still fine. Mine isnt AT ALL! Got some very very very creepy teachers. Not good! Haiz... Got my hair cut. Nicer and lighter. Haha. Off to sleep now. Bye!

Happy New Year/ Eve!!!

2009-12-31T15:37:00.004+08:00

不喜欢怀疑什么
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化　慢慢不同
我不是生气　只是心痛
最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变　但不能说你会这么做是我的错
哭过就好了　伤都会好的。。。

Well, Happy New year/Eve!!! Alot of things happened this year. Althought 75% of them are happy stuffs, but there is this 25% of time that I am suffering and nobody knows. Humm... Well, let those unhappy things past and start anew. Its a matter of hours that a new year is here. I only want to say those who have helped me and concerned about me, thanks alot. Regarding those who have tried or hurt me, you guys better watch out. I am NOT a pushover. Not letting these out does not mean that I am scared of you guys. Okay... Information deleted. Well, hope everybody will have a wonderful new year. Will post again next year! Bye 2009! Welcome to 2010!

Back

2009-12-30T17:56:00.003+08:00

Yo~ The pro is back from the NPCC Campcraft camp^^ Had soooooo much fun but injured all over. Its okay. Did shelther for 2 days. Keep changing and changing. However, we were sticking to the old model. We manage to built the whole thing up in 9minutes and 48seconds(Best timing). The quailty and timing were both there so I am satisfied with it. Haha. The whole camp was okay except for the sleeping part. I only manage to sleep quite late in the night. It was late and terrible because I slept in the mist of Si Hui and Bernice's laughters and the basketball's dribbling sound. So irritating. Play basketball in the middle of the night when people wants to sleep. Haiz... Never mind. Just soaked myself in soap and fresh warm water. Nice... Got my nails cut and feel so much better. Now just slacking and waiting for people to talk to me. Oh ya. By the way, tomorrow's eating session is cancelled. Sorry... Wants to know the reason, message me.^.^ Overall, I am glad that I went for the camp.

Ouch! Hurts....

2009-12-27T20:24:00.004+08:00

A new year is coming! Its coming to the end of 2009. Before I carry on let me say HAPPY BELATED 13TH BIRTHDAY to Benjamin Lim! Well Merry belated Christmas too! Humm... Okay. Yesterday went to East Coast Park(My sis called it East Roast Park)to cycle. Took Mr Woo's car(Was terrible)and arrived at the Macdonal's at 12.45pm. We were early as all of us planned to meet at 1pm. However, Bryan and Li An reached at 1.30pm and the rest reached around 2.30pm. As it rained and not many people were there yet, Mr Woo taught us some boring games. As Hannah, Zhong Xuan and Megan start to come, the rain got heavier and we were trapped outside Macdonalds.We continued to play card games and the most disgusting thing start to happen- Caterpillars started to crawl up Bryan's leg and the table. We were like freak out and Hannah keep using her phone to take pictures of them. EEEEEE! Then when the rain came drizzle, we went to the bicycle shop to find Chan Myae, only to know that he was already waiting for us at Macdonalds. So, Bryan and Mr woo go to Mr Woo's car to leave the board games there and take some umbrellas for those who needs them. As it was still pouring, we went to the arcade to kill some time. As there was still time, we went to Macdonalds to have a bite. Mr Woo treat us to some drinks and nuggets as his farewell treat(Haha). Then, to our surprise, the rain stopped and we procceed to cycle! Yeah! We rent some bicycles for an hour and got the other hour free. So, we ride for 2 hours like mad people. Haha. Ride around East Coast Park and to find Mr Wong fishing.=) Stayed down there for quite some time and continued cycling. When the last 1/2 hour aproached, Hannah said that she needs to go home and thus, we sped up our ride back to the bicycle shop. And because of that, my whole body ach like siao now. Hard to walk, sit and lie down. Terrible! Haiz... So, today, well nothing much. Couldnt sleep yesterday because the pain in my leg was killing me. Only manage to fall alseep in the morning around 8am. Then woke up at 11am. Cannot go out cos its causing alot of trouble just wanting to walk. Hate it! Polish my boots le, School bag pack le, School uniform also iron liao so I am 100% ready for school to reopen=D Right now, thinking hard if should go for training tomorrow and the camp on the next day! For sure will suffer de.:( No choice. Haiz... Off to sleep now. But before that, let me wish all of you guys a HAPPY NEW YEAR-2010!

Sian...

2009-12-23T13:37:00.004+08:00

Went back to school today. For prefect stuff. Help Mr Woo with the registration. Was like so damn hot in the hall and wearing that freaking tie! Helping him was like disaster but 1 thing I know is he is not coming back next year^^ Haha. I will miss him for sure but ... Haiz. That's life. Can't help it. Well, recovered from fever and is sure to feel energic again. Hehe... By the way, I am going to open my blog to invited readers only. So if you still want access, tag me and I will link you. Good luck. Deadline is 31 January=) Remember! And

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

The 22nd

2009-12-22T16:04:00.003+08:00

Today is the 22nd. Yeah!!! No idea why I so happy. Maybe it is because this is the last month on 2009 that made me 1 month older=D Haha. In 3 months time, I will be 14!!! So excited. Well, school is reopening soon and I still need to go back to school for both prefect stuffs and NPCC... Haiz... I want to really slack at home and do nothing. Argh!!! Tomorrow don't contact me. Will be in school for prefects stuffs which means school uniforms, prefect tie, name tag and prefect bedge! So mah fan. And Chan Myae, now its changed to 1 day to 1 month^^ Good luck trying. Plus keep whatever you know to yourself or I WILL expose your very very intersting story=)

~Fever~

2009-12-19T18:53:00.003+08:00

Anybody not feeling well at this moment? Well, I am... Feeling terrible. First vomit then keep coughing... Haiz... Hope the fever can come down soon so that I can go out with people again like what we did yesterday. Okay, let me tell you what happened. Yesterday, Dugra, Ho Xin Yi, Jackson, Nicklous, Benjamin and I went to Orchard ion, 313 and plaza Singapura. Was damn fun. Met at MRT station at 11.30(some were late) Then go to somewhere to have lunch- I only sec1 and only girl at that time. Didn't talk much. Then went to walk around like idiots while waiting for Dugra and Xin Yi to arrive. Later, they couldn't find us and we were like guessing the reasons. Some were like: Are they at the same place as us? Have they ever gone out to shopping before?Where excatly are they... And stuffs like that. Not long later, we saw them and they went for lunch while we wait for them at the cinema. When they arrived, we couldn't decide on what movie we want to watch. Haha. Stood down there for around 45minutes. Then decide to go cathay watch Princess and the frog. It was 2.37pm when we left the cinema and proceed to cathay. Wanted to watch the 3.15pm show but the furthest seat was 3rd row from the screen. So we decided on the 5.15pm show. There was so much time left and Benjamin suggest on going to some shop to eat soya beancurd. We spent quite a long time finding the place( Ben forgot where was it). In the end we found the place and settled down. Although the place wasn't very decent, but the food was nice. Enjoyed our 2 hours there. As we fininshed our food very quickly, we went to play with Ben and Xin Yi's iPhone. Was behaving quite madly. Later around 4.50, we walked back to the cinema. Bought our drinks and waited for the time to go seating. While waiting, we got bored and started chatting and drinking on our drinks. Before we even enter the theater, Nicklous and Xin Yi finished their drinks! Jackson and Dugra had 1/4 of their drinks left while I still have 3/4. Ben bought wedges so he didnt finish all before entering. Later when we were finally granted access, we rushed to the theater and enjoye the cool atmosphere. I WASN'T enjoying myself as I was sitting beside Ben and his purfume stinks! This was okay until towards the end of the show, he wanted to swap seat with me so he could talk to Jackson and I had to sit on his seat. Almost vomit out when I sat on it. The seat was soaked in purfume! I really pity the next person who sits there. Princess and the Frog was a fantastic movie!!! I love that show. Haha. Later we went for dinner and I kept 'qurralling' with Ben. Didn't care that much and then we went home.

Okay, the eating session's details are as followed:
31 Dec 09
3pm to 6pm
Sakae Sushi
$13.90
Any outlet(Suggestions welcomed)

Plan A for the day:
Meet at 11.30am
Lunch
Movie/shopping
EATING SESSION!
Arcade
Dinner

- Suggestions for all are welcomed. ^^

Training and training and training.

2009-12-16T20:01:00.004+08:00

Today's training was soooo fun!!! Best so far. Only thing I don't like is my blister burst when I pull the twine to tight. Arghh!!! It hurts. Humm... Let me see. Okay, today only got 3 girls who report for training so we could not do anything. Neither did we tie lashing for the wholt 5 hours plus. We went to create a new shelther. Much more bigger, cooler, easier and faster! Ya. So bascially I spent my time there doing these. Hope that people will start coming for trainings... Haiz... I very tired of calling people to ask them to come for trainings. So just help to call people ba... Increase the population. Haha... Well, I saw 7 jets today... If 1 contains 20 babies, then 7 will contain 140 babies!!! Haha. Okay theres nothing to post for now. I am off. Bye Bye!!!

Another day of another

2009-12-15T16:10:00.003+08:00

Today, another day WASTED!!! WTH!!! I am sooooo damn bored. Oh ya btw the pro here is organising an eating session. Anybody has any ideas? Okay, tell me once you have anything on your mind. Its oka if you find it stupid but just say ba... Share your wonderful ideas. Haha.

Okay on summary, I wan to say I am BORED!!! Hope school reopens soon. Miss everybody and hope to see you guys soon. Not the NPCC people who I am seeing thrice a week... I changed my phone plan to unlimited sms already so can reply as many smses as I want. Feel free to message me!!! The weather not that good nowdays so drink more water, don't get sick!

Tomorrow go training again. Hiaz... Squirrel going to get fried and boil in the hot sun... Changing race liao la. Sob... Sob... Only if there is a shelther for me to hide in... I will definetly appreciate that shelther^^Well, I am off to sleep again... Yawn... Tired. Bye!

You got it? No, I don't think so...

2009-12-14T18:41:00.004+08:00

Humm... What should I say...
1) Good luck to Ashley Lau^^ You know what I am talking about.
2) My blisters and whole body hurts... Any cure?
3) Trying to think of every way to quit NPCC CC trainings- Anyone any ideas???
4) Dying for holiday to be over but does not look forward to the competition and tests.
5) For any reasons, STOP pairing me up with people. You guys DON'T know how I feel nor really understands me!!!
6) My wallet is EMPTY!!! OMG... Must cut down all expenses... Haizzz...
7) Mr May, congrates for getting 2As... So liong and so near... Hehe:)
8) Whatever is coming up for the training, I am sooooo going bear with it.
9) Wants to maintain standards for everything I do.
10) Forget about EVERYTHING!!!

Whatever is yours is yours and will always be yours. Whatever is NOT yours, is never once yours and will never be yours. They are all chained up. Its the method you use to unchain them. Don't get the wrong meaning... Humm if you cant understand, I can't help you either... Only clever people knows what I am talking about. Those who really understands me will also know what am I talking about.:)

Well, today was okay... Training wasn't that nice. Got injured all over:( Blisters and stuff. Haiz... Thinking about leaving just like that. But that shouldnt be it. Must be abit more responsible. Write a letter at least. So that's what I am doing now... Should I print or not... Thinking hard. Never mind. Decide that later. Holidays are coming to an end!!! And it seemed that people are getting more relationship problems nowdays...So, I have become THEIR relationship advisor-.- How wonder FOOL... Next, although I am a so called advisor, doesn't mean that I am intrested in relationship now... So take that I beg you guys- STOP confessing!!! Keep it all to YOURSELF! S.T.O.P. Understand? You want to take that I am attatched also can single also can, but keep all comments to yourself. I don't want anything to go wrong now. Its the most important time of my life. It all decides here. Anyway, Happy Birthday to Li Jun and Ning Jun.^^. Will post again soon. Bye for now!

Fly... Fly Far Far Further...

2009-12-08T14:43:00.004+08:00

Well. May I ask," Who on Earth is not having muscle cramps and injuries?". I am having it all!!! Thanks to NPCC tough campcraft trainings. Haiz. Yesterday was indeed not a nice day for training. That ***** Chan was like erm... Crazy... Keep ordering people around. Other seniors giving instructions but he down there giving instrutions also. Who's one he expect us to listen to? Idiotic. Forget about him- Mood spoiler. Found a very close and good friend. Haha. So happy. Wanted to go watch movie today but somthing crashed with the timing then in the end never go. Tuition!!! What the hell. Holiday leh. I though I should be enjoying it. However things really are changing. As times goes on, more confession came in my way, made more friends, lost some friends and get to see people's real side of character. Its all like a game. Actually, as long as I have more then enough close friends and those who really understand me, I am happy already. I don't need a thousand friends who doesnt know me and don't care and bother about me. I want those that really can understand how I feel and want at times. I know it isn't an easy task but using my true feelings to search will grant me quite a few. Well, I found 2. Hum... People how about you? How has life been going? I realised I have been a changed person. I odn't want any position. All I want is myself. I lived more happily, relaxed and carefree. There isn't anything called stress I faced these days. Maybe I am not the leading type ba. Only want to be myself. So people don't find me weird when school reopens. I am really a changed person. Not what I use to be:)Yup. Look forward to see everybody in school. Plus whoever has helped me along the way, thanks alot.^^

Yawn...

2009-12-04T21:13:00.003+08:00

5 weeks of holiday le and I have not done much. Hiaiz... Hope theres something I can do. Somebody tell me ba. So tired le. Yawn... I go sleep le. Some other time tell me wad to do ba!!!!

Bored!!!

2009-12-03T15:33:00.003+08:00

Today- 3 December 2009, Thursday. Went to Vivo city yesterday to watch fireworks. Was damn nice. Wonder how many people went to see it yesterday. Currently nothing to post. Don't know why feeling very tired. Lie on bed than can fall alseep immediately. Haiz.... Hope that there's somebody who can keep my spirit up to prevent me from falling asleep again. Well off to do something else. Bye!!!

Emotions...

2009-11-30T20:07:00.005+08:00

Blink your eyes. Just blink it. Do as I say. Just for a mintue. Open it. Did the world around you change? Abit? No of course. You are in the world which is meant for you. You, ya you, is a piece os missing puzzle in somebody's life. You just don't know who. Going around to look at everybody. Ask yourself:
1) How you look at this person.
2) How do you feel about this person.
3) If you don't know this person, guess his/her character- Good or bad.

I sat there. Stared into his innocent eyes. He stared back. I did not have any feeling. It was just a blank, pure stare. Well, I guess this is what I meant- Friendship. I stood up, tidy my attire and walked steadily to him. I whispered in his ears:" Sorry. We can only be friends.". He stepped back and hold me tight. I looked in his eyes once again. Confirmed. This is the feeling. And so, I broke free and continued my journey...

The end... Okay I know that's an intresting story but isn't what I want to talk about today. Isn't anything for me to post... Don't have anything much to say. Well life goes on right? So, now is time for me to move on and go facebook-ing. Bye:)

Today?

2009-11-29T16:21:00.004+08:00

Yo!!! Back from Bukit Batok(West Mall)... So tired... Weather so damn warm... Argh... Okay. Today woke up at 6.30am to bathe so my hair can dry. Then Left house with empty stomach at 8am. Took MRT to Bukti Batok to meet Zheng Hao and Chan Myae(Mr May). Went into the shopping mall too early. Nobody there and we were the only idiots walking around. Haha. Then went to buy tickets. Not many people watch the show... Humm I guess it was too early. Then finish the show liao neck pain. Because tilt at a same angle for too long. Later, we went to eat luch and walk around. Saw many funny stuffs and Chan Myae was searching for something for his somebody. Haha. Then things became very sick(I don't wish to mention it.) Laugh for don't know how long then go eat ice-cream. Finish ice-cream liao Zhen Hao's mother called him and he had to leave. We left after he went away... So after that I am here posting this. Well people. Enjoy your day!!! Smile:)

Wow... Okay...

2009-11-28T19:09:00.003+08:00

It has been 4 days since I last post... Well, didn't have the mood to come online... I didnt know I was so popular... Left my blog to die also got people come to save it... You guys love my blog this much arh... Can't believe it sia... I know you people have got tight scheduls but thanks for taking time to come here. At least you guys bother to come... Haha. Well just plain thanks... Okay... Nothing much to post... Still want to go back to Bintan. Counldnt get back to fact that I am already back to Singapore... Hehe. It was damn fun there. Okay, the pictures will come at a very late date because some problems with uploading them... I will try my best to but meanwhile people, please be patient... Okay, all I have to say is HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIA YING!!!

Continue Story and life goes on...

2009-11-24T14:21:00.004+08:00

Day 3
Woke up at 4am(Singapore time 3am). Was woken up by e guys because our tent was just beside theirs. So noisy!!! Then never brush teeth cause no fresh water supply!!! Later went to play with water and said how peaceful the survival island was and how we don't want to go back to Loola. Not long later the suckish breakfast come liao. Didn't eat much because it was just too disgusting. Cold food will shorten my short life!!! Soon we were brought back to Loola. 1/4 people and 4 other lucky fellows were brought back to Loola by the car. So cool because got air-con and not squeezy at all. Enjoy our journey back. Then dash to the bahroom to shower. Felt so great. Later nothing to do just sit down there and look out to the sea. Look so nice because it was high tide. Then procceed for lunch and tree climbling plus sky walk. The coconut tree climbling was tough and my muscule almost tear as the muscules were already injured during kayaking. Later, the sky walk(more like sky jump) was fun, scary and thrilling!Like jumping off a building. It was just plain fun. Then it was free time till later part of the day. Hours later, we were gathered for the mock campfire. Were thought some campfire songs and told what to do for the campfire.Then followed by the BBQ dinner. Wasn't very nice but still edible. Then while eating, Chan myae and I was pushed by some invisible force from behind. I was so freaked out. Then it was campfire. Okay, I will share with you what my group did. If you know the song peace by the river, the just sing the following with the same tune:

(We've got sandy in Loola
We've got sandy in Loola
We've got sandy in Loola
Si Bei Sui Si Bei Sui)x2

(We were freezing in the shower
We were freezing in the shower
We were freezing in the shower
Si Bei Cold Si Bei Cold)x2

(We had fun on the island
We had fun on the island
We had fun on the island
Si Bei Fun Si Bei Fun)x2

(We've got sandy in Loola
We were freezing in the shower
We had fun on the island
So Jia Lak So Jia Lak)x2

Haha. I know very lame la. However its creative lor. Okay. Later the Sec4s perform something that sent us all laughing non-stop. I didnt manage to record it down because my phone no batt. Sorry people. They were just dancing but its just super funny. Then we played games. Cantona was forced to propose to Kang Xin Yi and Kang Xin Yi agreed! Haha. Then we walked back to our dorm and Chan Myae reminded me of the scary experience. Then I became very scared to walk back. Thenks to Zheng Hao, Cantona and Chan Myae. They body guarded me back there. Then later Canto na wants to go toilet and we followed him. I did not want to go at first but Zheng Hao excort me there and I felt safe. Later it was my turn. I want to go to the toilet to brush my teeth and once again he accompany me to the toilet. While we were on our way back, we went to talk to the instructors. They told us stories that happened there. Halfway through, it got real dark and I did not dare to go back liao. So in the end we requested to sleep out side their dorm. They say can so the whole group of us( Cantona, Kang Xin Yi, Chan Myae, Zheng Hao and me) went back to get all our stuffs and we settled down. The instructors then continue to tell us stories about Loola. I came to know about Loola was form by names. The bosses of the resort- Mr Loo and Mdm La. So ya. That's how the name came about. Then he continued to tell us alot more. We slept very late that night around 1am(Singapore 2am) I think.

Day 4
I woke up at 4 plus( Singapore 5plus). Then watched sun rise and went to change and wash up. Others havent wake up yet so I start to pack my things. Then 45minutes till reporting time, I woke them up. Luckily they were still fast so manage to report on time. Went to have the same disgusting breakfast again. Didn't eat much because feel like vomiting. The rest went for sailing while I continue sleeping was so tired. I tell you guys what happened at night:
Cantona hugged Xin Yi for warmth and comfort through the night. Zheng Hao kicked me and took my jacket while he sleep leaving me to the freezing night. Chan Myae was like stick to the side of the platform where we sleep at night. Haha. After sailing, people went to wash up and we took our stuffs to the canteen area. Board the bus to the so called shopping centre. Had the most terrible lunch there and went to shop. The 1/4 people went to but the same watch. So cool!!! Then later went to baord the bus to the terminal and went on the ferry. The ferry suck like hell. So squashed up and feel like vomiting again. Feel alseep on the ferry and the bus that fetch us back to school. Although slept alot of times but still not enough. Came back home, empty my luggage and went to bathe.(Use the toilet for quite a long time too) Later just went to sleep peacefully.

And now just happily living down here with no worries and very blessed. Thanks for everything guys. I finally get to know what is the feeling of letting go of everything. Its just nice and I feel so much lighter. Its just the feeling of... I don't know. Haha.

Back from Bintan!!!

2009-11-23T15:40:00.003+08:00

Yo people! I am back- Darker, fresher and more confident. The Bintan trip indeed had made me think very very deep. Now I really see the real side of people- Their character. I found my true feelings for someone. It just seemed that I have never changed. I was forcing myself to do the things that I did not want to do. Haha. Okay. I will tell you the things that happened at Bintan.

Day 1, 19 November 2009-Thursday.

Woke up at 5.15am to prepare. Left house at 6am and wait for Xin Yi's dad to pick me up at the carpark. Was abit late but managed to reach school on time. Thank You!!! Next. Saw Zheng Hao and Alvern. Went to chat with them. Came to know that they also like me like that kia su. Luggage got lock de. Haha. Then keep going around asking if people remember to take their passport. Luckily everybody brought theirs. Went to board bus and reached Tanah Mearh Ferry terminal.45minutes bus ride. So damn bored. Only Zheng Hao and Chan Myae plus me(From 1/4) went f0r the trip. Later took the stupid small small boat to Tanjung Pinang. Then was so disappointed when I saw the bus... No air-con plus squeezy. Haiz... Then journey to the resort was damn freaking terrible. When we reached the resort, I couldn't stop complaining for 1 full hour. Haha. Sand was everywhere and was disappointed when we could not have the better looking resort at the far end. Say people come first so they go there first. I start to complain again. Haha. Later it started to rain and we can't do anything so went for a nap. Then later while waiting for the rain to stop, the ex-ncos played games with us. Although it was boring but at least that killed some time. After that went for the mud-flat walk when was low tide.Was fun but got myself very dirty. Went to look for crab, octopus, statfish ect. Took some pictures but will post them at a later time. After the walk was dinner. Suck like hell. Actually all the meals there was DISGUSTING. Then it was free time. Went for a shower. Was damn freezing cold but was nice because it was refreshing. Later I sat in the 'canteen' and waited for lights out. They Chan Myae passed me some chocolate say specially for me de. Haha. Nice. Then went to bed after briefing.

Day 2

Woke up at 5am(Singapore time 4am) because Hakimah woke us up. Never mind. Was like an idiot doing nothing. Then went outside to change into wet attire. Then went for breakfast. After that we were spilt into groups. Mine went for Kayaking first. After kayaking, my left side of the body became paraliysed. Very pain. Moved on for flyinf fox into water. Damn shoik sia.Become dirty and very very wet. Ran to bath then pack up for survival island. Had lunch then went off. Took boat to some small island and look around first. Slept on the way to that island. I slept on Zheng Hao and Zhenh Hao slept on me. Not on purpose de... Then later went for boom netting. Wah. Got injuries everywhere but was nice. Hope can do it again. Later we reach survival island,. I almost fainted. Toilet no door and the place full of mosquitoes. Went to search for food but down on luck. Got to eat instant noodle which was damn freaking salty and plus some disgusting food. Then time for sleeping. I was crazy enough to ask if we could sleep outside on the sand. Was fun but it rained so have to moved inside... Had a goodnight and was very fun.

Post till here first. Need go for tuition le. Will post next time. Bye people!!!

Bye peolpe... Coming back on 22 November. Don't miss me too much!!!

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Going to Bintan soon!!! Humm...... Lagguage haven't ready yet. Haha. Still waiting for some stuffs to be ready. Before going overseas of cause must play like siao la. So... Today went to watch movie. Spent a total of $11. That 1 never mind la. Watch 2012. Was damn nice lor. Very scary. Almost stop breathing for 7 times. Recomend you people to go watch. I will not be in Singapore from 19 November to 22 November. Will tell you people about the trip when I come back. Mean while in order to keep my blog alive, please help me spam my tag box with your name. No name, buzz off. Thanks. It seemed that I have nothing intresting to post. Holiday nothing to do so is rotting at home when there is no training. Anybody going to go out contact me!!! Now go see if got better things to do or not. Haiz... Will miss you people. Bye Bye!!!